I know what they'll think.
So I stay.
I know what they'll say.
So I stay.
The words would repeat inside of my head.
Over and over,
Again and again.
I know what I'm doing, I want to be dead.
Over and over,
I wish it would end.
"You have no reason to do it."
"You have everything other children don't have."
"You have a family, a roof over your head."
"You can go to school, you have so many friends."
"There's nothing wrong with you."
"You can't leave, don't you care what it would do to me."
"You have so many people who care about you."
"Just because you don't get exactly what you want, ungrateful."
"There's nothing wrong with you."
"Why would you leave if you were okay?"
I guess that's the point,
I wasn't okay.
I just want to be saved,
But don't want to stay.
I guess I'm okay,
Cause everyday,
I'd want to die,
and just fade away.
(December 01, 2017)
