Am I ever gonna be okay again?
I'm so tired of this feeling.
I just want to feel happy.
Or anything other than this numb, sad, achy, bitter lonely feeling.
I'm sick of feeling worthless.
Ruthless.
And hopeless.
I'm just so tired of being tired all the time.
I'm sick of wanting to scream, cry or claw at my skin.
I just want to be okay again.
Is it ever going to go away?
Am I ever going to be okay?
Is it ever going to be okay again?
Because I don't know how much longer I'm holding on for with this feeling drowning me the entire time.
No after how badly I want to fight this, try, to fight this - I just feel myself slipping down this endless abyss and one day soon I'm gonna finally feel what it's like to hit the bottom.
I just hope the bottom, with all my heart, is some beautiful place with soft flowers pretty petals and beautiful butterflies.
I want you to know, that I don't just want to die, I want to live too.
But death is the only thing that gives me the smallest incline that this will all be over with.
I just want to be okay.
And if I never get to be.
I just want to know that it was all worth it in the end.
Cause I don't think I can keep feeling this way for too much longer without finally giving up and giving in.
