I want to cry.
I want to shout.
And I want to die.
None of which I can do right now.
I'm just so miserable,
I'm so drained.
God, I'm the epitome of death.
I'm basically a dead girl walking.
Yes, I'm breathing so it's so obvious I'm alive,
But I'm so tired, I'm so sad, I'm so done, it's just basically impossible for me to even want to carry on.
I'm like literally a zombie.
Mindlessly going through life.
A paper doll.
A puppet.
And somewhere up in the heavens my master must have gotten bored of me,
So I'm travelling on autopilot.
I'm not even living anymore.
I'm breathing, but I'm not here anymore.
My soul is long gone.
It's just my body left.
I'm so tired, I'm exhausted.
(January 12, 2018)
