All these issues are more valuable than my life.
Arguments are more valuable than my life.
Money is more valuable than my life.
Dnd although taking my life is not the answer.
It's the only thing that's not valuable.
Maybe a couple hundreds here and there for funeral costs.
But that's it.
You won't have to pay for my life anymore.
You won't have to waste effort on me anymore.
I wonder why my cousin killed himself.
He was here one day then done the next.
We didn't even know of his depression.
It just happened out of nowhere.
He had a girlfriend.
He had a family.
He had a life.
But I will always wonder.
But I will also understand.
Because if he didn't have the will to live I know why.
Because not even I have the will to live anymore.
They only talk about him once in a while.
But when he disappeared from the earth.
He disappeared from their lives too.
Not mine though.
I'd get it if I had someone I'm this family who understood.
I bet if he were still suffering this battle he would get it.
Because I get it.
I understand other people's pains.
And although they aren't the same as mine.
I get it.
I know how bad it must seem to them
I sometimes feel insane even.
But I've also got no one.
No one.
