My college day started with a FA and it was a decent lecture. For some reason I wasn't really feeling that great, not healthwise but I just had a feeling that something not so nice is about to happen.
And I was right. During our lunch break, Paul and I decided to eat lunch together because we anyways had a class together after lunch. Since I hadn't got any lunch from home, we decided to go to the resident canteen, parcel something up and then go somewhere else to eat, because there normally isn't any empty place in the canteen during lunch time. Well, that was the plan until we did find a place next to some of our classmates.
I still decided to get my rice and gravy parceled because I thought Paul wanted to have the chaat at the other canteen. But then when I saw him talking to those classmates, I thought Paul had changed his mind and decided to eat there itself. But you have no idea how lonely and left out I felt. Paul talks to and hangs out with these people but I don't. So I legit had no idea what to speak. I could not utter one single word in front of them. In Paul's defense, he did ask me if I would like to somewhere but he seemed to be having a good time and I did not want to seem rude by just taking him away.
At one point they started talking about alcohol so I just concentrated on eating my food. Which was also a pain to be honest. Since I had got my food parceled, I wasn't able to eat it properly. I swear all of them were probably weirded out because I could have just taken the plate instead. The entire time to the classroom, I wasn't able to say one single word and that hurt more than it should have. Why am I getting sooooo self conscious again? I've been making constant efforts not to.
I only brightened up when Kristen came to class but I don't want to feel the need to have Kristen around to lift my mood up. I want to be able to act normally even when Kristen is not around. We had our CEM/CRM lecture and it was such a wasteeee! I don't know what the professor is up to! Why can't he teach us for once before dumping us with an incomprehensible huge ass assignment?!
After college, I chilled with Paul and Kristen for a while and then came back home.
Today was totally not a good day.
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An Outlet: Part 4
Non-FictionThis piece of writing is mostly for myself. I want this to act as my journal. I've always tried to see life from others' perspective. I think it's time to see it from mine. This can act as a rough draft of my life. If you're very nosy and want to kn...
