An Outlet: Part 4

3 September, 2018.

So I had my second Finance test today and I think I could have done better. 

I did tally my sum somehow but I don't think it was the right method. I'm waiting for the answer key to come out so I can get to know where I went wrong. I definitely won't get full marks like I hoped to but it will be good so I'm not that beat up about it.

To be honest, more than the test, I was extremely tensed about my 2 min presentation that I am selected for. We were supposed to have a dry run today and I hadn't made any changes to my PPT. I had intended to do it in college using one of the PCs in the computer lab but everything was booked today because of an event and I could not find any faculty who could help me. I hadn't even prepared my speech like I normally would. I was positively shit scared to a point where I wasn't able to participate in conversations AT ALL. What if I wasn't able to speak properly, what if I blanked out, what if I speak rubbish, what if I get cut from the presentation?? I want to make myself and my parents proud so I had to overcomes these inhibitions.

During the break and free lecture, a few of my friends and I decided to brainstorm for gifting ideas for one of our friends' upcoming birthday. After that I had an export marketing lecture which went like a breeze and then I met Kristen and Paul at the resident coffee shop and hung out with them until they went for their 2PM class and I had to meet up for my dry run.

I had thought that we will have to present it in front of faculty members and of course my fellow presenters but nope, it was just a meeting and a pretty relieving one at that. Because our talk for the day after tomorrow has been reduced from 2 mins to only 30 seconds each which is both a good and bad thing. Bad because 30 seconds is a little too less of a time frame to explain one's internship and a good thing because HELLO MY SOCIAL ANXIETY FEELS GREAT AFTER HEARING THIS! I kid you not, I was literally the happiest person after the meeting. 

I waited for Gurtley (who is also presenting alongside me and 10 others) who because of her summer course and internship of learning and applying the Microsoft Power BI software, has got a change to attend lectures for the same. Good for her.

For now, I'm just really happy but I will also need to prepare for the 30 sec speech.

At home, I saw the final episode of Produce 48. Even though I'm upset with the final lineup, I have my Choi Yena, and Yubuki Nako in IZ*ONE and I have taken a liking towards Jo Yuri and Lee Chaeyeon as well so I have to support them. I can't wait to see what kind of music this new girl group will come out with and the variety shows they will participate in. It's going to be fun.

I am also waiting for an announcement where some of the eliminated contestants of Produce48 get to debut under a temporary group. Last year, after the Produce 101 season 2's final line up for Wannaone was revealed, due to popular fan demand, a temporary group JBJ was also formed with some of the eliminated contestants. Even though Wannaone became a huge success, JBJ was also a popular group throughout their 6 month long tenure. This year, there is a petition for a temporary girl group 4tune8 going round and if signed by the required number of people, might even become a reality.

The temporary lineup for 4tune8 currently is:
Han Chowon
Lee Gaeun
Park Haeyoon
Takahashi Juri
Shiroma Miru
Miyazaki Miho
Shitao Miu
Takeuchi Miyu
Kim Doah 
Kim Nayong

I have my doubts regarding this temporary group because there are Japanese members of the AKB family here and they have their own duties and possibly schedules for their respective groups in Japan. Even so, I hope this becomes a reality and I see my favorites on stage again.