Fate saved us

Chapter 45

Beyoncé's PoV
November 2nd 1992

"Michael-" I sigh watching him whimper as he cries "I don't know what you're on about" I shake my head confused.
I take a step closer to him but he slides back on his chair shaking his head "don't come any cl-closer" he warns as he cries harder
I gasp feeling pissed "I haven't done fuck all yet you're sat there crying trying to play the damn victim!" I almost yell, I throw my hands in the air and let them fall back down to my side.
He shook his head at me and looks down "you just don't get it, do you?"
I shrug "get what, Michael?" I plead with him with sorrowful eyes as I stand there and watch as tears slip from my eyes "help me get it michael.."
The kitchen door opens "oh—" someone says. I turn around to see Jackie. I smile softly so he smiles back "Michael, we're ready for you. The girls wanna see you perform"
I look back at Michael waiting for him to reply to what Jackie said. I watch as his face lights up at the mention of his baby girls.
He smiles widely and wipes his cheeks "I'm ready" he gets up from his chair and walks to the door.. Jackie leaves us be and walks back over to our family and friends in the extremely large garden.

"Michael?" I call out softly, he stops in his tracks and looks at me "What?" He asked as he whimpers which makes me frown "what's up?"

He shrugged and backed away "why don't you go spend some time with Conor, I'm sure he's missing you right now" Michael replies, he turns around fully and starts walking over to his brothers. He paints a fake smile on his face as everyone cheers for him and his brothers— mainly him.
I gulp and prepare myself— I head outside and go sit next to Janet and Katherine "everything okay?" Janet asks me pulling a worried face. I nod and smile "everything's fine"

I sit and quietly observe my two little girls up dancing watching their daddy and uncles singing and dancing on stage.

He starts singing blame it on the boogie with his brothers

"My baby's always dancin'
And it wouldn't be a bad thing
But I don't get no lovin'
And that's no lie
We spent the night in Frisco
At every kind of disco
From that night I kissed our love goodbyeeeeee" he sang kicking his feet around as his brothers copy him. He then sings the chorus with his brothers

"That nasty boogie bugs me
But somehow it has drugged me
Spellbound rhythm gets me on my feet
I've changed my life completely
I've seen the lightening leave me
My baby just can't take her eyes off meeeee"   he sings while looking at me intently making me freeze and gulp. I look around and Janet has her eyes on me smirking. I just shake my head and turn my attention to my babies up dancing with Conor making me smile.
Michael and his brothers sing the chorus and then it's time for another verse which he makes sure to stare me out while singing it.

"This magic music grooves me
That dirty rhythm moves me
The devil's gotten to me through this dance
I'm full of funky fever
A fire burns inside me
Boogie's got me in a super trance"

He finishes the song off with the chorus as everyone erupts in claps and whistles congratulating him.. he takes a bow and waits for the next song to play.

I recognise the song to be 'Give in to me' from the dangerous album.. which he initially wrote about me. Great! I slump down in my chair as Conor comes and sits next to me. He whispers in my ear "You okay, Bey?"
I look at him with a quick nod and smile, then turning back to face Michael.. his brothers come off stage and sit down at the tables available.

"I just wanna make a real quick announcement to my two baby girls..." he smiles and looks down at them as they stare up at him with admiration. I smile at how much they love Michael.
"Happy birthday Kiara and Blue.. daddy loves you both so much. Happy second birthday princesses" he coos then nods over to the Dj who restarts the music.
I look over at Janet whose eyes are widen because she knows he is only singing this to aim it at me.
She furrows her eyebrows slightly at me as she tilts her head to the side. I nod "I'm okay" I lip sync to her which makes her nod and smile wanly.

"She always takes it with a heart of stone
'Cause all she does is throw it back to me" he sings passionately walking around the mini stage, but still keeps his deathly gaze on me.
"I've spend a lifetime
Looking for someone
Don't try to understand me
Just simply do the
Things I say.
Love is a feeling
Give it when I want it
'Cause I'm on fire
Quench my desire
Give it when I want it
Talk to me woman
Give in to me
Give in to me"
He sings so passionately which makes Katherine weep a little "I'm so proud of my boy" she says proudly as she shakes her head in astonishment.

"You always knew just how to make me cry
And never did I ask you questions why
It seems you get your kicks from hurting me
Don't try to understand me
Because your words just aren't enough
Love is a feeling
Quench my desire
Give it when I want it
Takin' me higher
Love is a woman
I don't want to hear it
Give in to me
Give in to me" he sings bringing up the girls on stage as he lets them dance together on the stage.

"You and your friends
Were laughing at me in town
But it's okay
And it's okay
You won't be laughing girl
When I'm not around
I'll be okay" he sings loudly as a tear slips from his eye, he breaks I contact with me and carries on walking across the stage doing some rock dance moves
"And I'll, I'll not find
Gotta, the peace of mind no
Don't try to tell me
Because your words
Just aren't enough
Love is a feeling
Quench my desire
Give it when I want it
Takin' me higher
Talk to me woman
Love is a feeling
Give in to me
Give in to me
Give in to me
Love is the feeling
I don't want to hear it
Quench my desire
Takin' me higher
Tell it to the preacher
Satisfy the feeling
Give in to me
Give in to me
I don't want to
I don't want to
I don't want to
Hear it
Give it to the fire
Talk to me woman
Quench my desire
I don't like a lady
Talk to me baby
Give in to me
Give in to the fire
Give in to me
Give in to me
Give in to me
Love is a woman
Give in to me
Give in to me
Give in to me
Give in to me
'Cause I'm on fire
Talk to me woman
Quench my desire
Give it to the feeling"

Once he finishes the song, he puts the microphone down as the girls run at him, smothering him with hugs and kisses. I sigh and look down.
"That was good, wasn't it?" Conor asks from beside me. I look at him and nod "he's an amazing performer" I confess
He smiles at me softly "you still love him.. right?" He wonders raising a knowing brow at me.
I sigh looking away from Conor's stare to Michael who is looking over as he talks to his brothers. I look back at Conor and nod "yeah I do, of course I do.. he's the father to my baby girls. He'll always have a special place in my heart. B-"

"But what?" Conor asked

"He cheated, and he's cheated more than once. I can't be dealing with that immaturity.. cheating is something a teenager does to mess with a girls feelings. We aren't teenagers anymore. We're in our 30's and have two children who need us.. he should be feeling blessed and lucky right now. Because, if I didn't have Kiara and Blue. He'd of never of seen me ever again.. and that would of been a promise. He's only seeing me now because of the girls" I confess. Conor nods as I talk "I get you" he replies softly
"He does love you though" Connor adds looking around the Hayvenhurst complex
I raise a brow and laugh "does he though?" I ask sarcastically
"Yeah he does" Conor nods "that's why he hasn't taken his eyes off of you since he got off stage.. cause you're here talking to me" he mumbled the last part making me giggle.

"Have you even talked to him yet?" I ask Conor. He shrugged his shoulder "I said hi, he just looked at me and nodded though. I think he hates me, probably knowing full well I'm on your side supporting you"

I laugh, "obviously"

Conor looks at me smiling, he shakes his head nudging me with his shoulder makes me laugh and I lick my lips.