The Audition || Felix FF || Stray Kids ✔

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𝑪𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝑵𝒖𝒎𝒃𝒆𝒓 28
Do you deserve to debut?

"No! Don't cry!" I take Nina into my arms as Yuna walked into the room with a smile on her face.

"I missed her so much!" Nina cried as the other eliminated girls walked in as well, the camera crew following.

Yuna stood in front of us with a bright smile, none of us said a word before clashing into each others arms.

"I missed you guys so much!" Yuna began to let tears fall out.

I hugged Yuna so tight, I didn't want to let go. I knew that if I made the debut line up then I would become too busy in the first moments of debuting and leading up to it. JYPE has a thing for making their female artists work a lot as well...

"I can't believe we'll be performing together." Nina breathed out. "For one last time."

"I'm sure it won't be the last time, maybe we'll perform again in the future." I smiled as we all pull away from the hug.

"I learned more english while I was gone." Yuna turned to me. "I can understand a lot more now!"

I smiled at her before giving her another quick hug and leading her to the mirrors to practice.

We spent the entire day practicing and checking our vocals, the other girls weren't going to sing though only because we aren't eliminated yet.

"Yuna, make sure to not look too stiff on this part." I advised as I fixed Yuna's posture. "You look too tense on here so just relax and focus on your footwork."

After I helped Yuna, I went to Nina and fixed her position.

"Nina you're looking a bit too awkward on this part." I explained. "Maybe if you place more balance— Yeah that's good!"

The camera crew was following me around the room for some reason, it was almost blinding me because of the white light hitting my eyes.

"Alright, everyone in the line up right now please step over here!" A voice projected throughout the room.

I turned to the voice and saw JYP himself standing there with his hands clasped together.

I quickly stand next go Nina and the other girls as he walked towards us.

"One girl is going to go into the separate room and answer the question in front of the camera, I need you girls to be honest." JYP said.

We all nodded at his words as we waited for each girl to go and come back from the room. I was nervous, why was I nervous? What was the question? He better not pin us against each other... What if the question was something like who do you want to be eliminated?

The camera crew already left to the other room and Felix walked next to me whispering into my ear. "Don't worry about it, the more nervous you get the more you'll mess up on your answer. Be confident."

I turned to him and nodded slightly, I guess he was right? Mako did teach me how to get more confidence and stand tall even if I didn't feel confident.

Suddenly it was my turn to go so I left the room and walked into the separate room with the cameras facing me. I looked at the table and see the question written in black on a whiteboard.

Do you deserve to debut? Why or why not?

I felt weird, what was this question? Was this a trick question? I didn't know how to respond.

Do I? I haven't been the best, I mean I wish I was as good as Mako who was trained for longer than me.. Did I deserve to debut? Wasn't it more of hoping I get it?

I sit down in the chair as the camera still faced me, I had to say something.

"Ah.." I start but then think again, should I remain humble?

I looked down for a few seconds before looking back up at the camera. "I know that it's much harder for me to debut, I'm a foreigner and usually we have more hard times to be accepted and fit in. Do I deserve to debut?"

I thought back to what Mako taught me, confidence.

"I deserve to debut." I confirm. "I've worked really hard for the past few months, I took this really seriously and I know that I've improved. At the start of this I didn't think of myself worthy enough to get this far but I did, I know that even if times get tough I will still put my 100% into everything I do revolving performance. This is my dream and I know I've done well enough."

And with that I bow down and exit the room, that was scary. I know it was probably wrong, I wanted to say how each of the members deserve to debut because I want to stay as humble as I can. And its not backhanded at all! I truly believe all the members on the line up right now deserve to debut because they have all worked hard as well.

"How was it?" Felix asked as I sat on the couch of the dance room.

"Okay, I felt like it was a trick question though." I sighed. "What if I said it wrong?"

"I think your true colors will show regardless, this isn't about competition and a lot of girls thought it was. Like a race to see who is better than who but this is really about being yourself, express your true colors." Felix smiled as he patted me on the back.

"Really? So I've been worried this whole time for nothing?" I scoffed.

"No, it's okay to worry because worrying makes you more alert onto challenges you'll face. If you don't take this serious and just think about expressing yourself then you won't make it. You have to work hard and express yourself, you have to have responsibility." Felix explained more.

"Right." I nodded and looked over to Mako who watched us through the mirror. "Hey, you should help Mako with her dance.. I think she would appreciate the help since you're her mentor."

Felix's eyes widened in shock. "Really? I just thought you would feel uncomfortable with me—"

"She needs the help, I'll be fine." I smiled softly as he nods and goes over to her.

I needed to trust him, we aren't official but maybe one day we will and I want to make sure we have that trust before anything else happens.