Alaska is a normal teenage girl who loves to dance, she isn't asian in any way though. She didn't expect to make it into JYP entertainment but to her surprise it was Felix Lee who helped her get in, she needs to debut or else it'll be all for nothin...
(A/N: The Lovesick girls version Alaska's group performed ^^^)
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𝑪𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝑵𝒖𝒎𝒃𝒆𝒓 56 10 or nothing
"Welcome, wow all of you look nervous." Psy chuckled as he sat at the judges chair with... Oh my god what.
HYUNA WAS HERE! AND DAWN!
Wait... Is that Jessi?
What the fuck is Felix doing here?
Oh my, there's fans here! Fans for who?
Ahhh! Heize is here!
"Oh my fucking god." Nina cursed and then apologized quickly. "Is that Hyuna?"
"I can't do this anymore." Aaliyah dramatically walked away. "I can't be embarrassing myself in front of Miss Hyuna. Not our queen."
"Guys," I snorted. "We got this, you all worked hard and I know the nerves may be eating you up but remember that you came here for this. Prove to them why you should become an idol, this is your dream. And if proving to them is scary then pretend that you're proving to me why you should be apart of my team."
The girls looked at me with nervous smiled but still nodded, I know it sucks to be nervous but these girls mean so much to me even if we haven't known each other for a year.
"We have 6 judges, including me that will judge on who will debut." Psy said as he flipped through the pages. "Good luck to everyone."
"Hi guys," Hyuna took the microphone from her desk. "I'll be looking forward to your performances, good luck."
She smiled at us which made my heart melt, imagine being able to perform in front of one of your artists.
We weren't the first group to be called up thankfully, we had time to collect ourselves and adjust our make up and clothes.
I think the lyrics ended up being good, one thing we didn't tell Psy about our performance is that the lyrics would be in english on some parts rather than Korean.
I wanted to show him my capabilities of being able to rewrite and translate the lyrics while keeping the same meaning.
Were those brownie points? Who knows.
3 groups went up before us and in no time we were called up.
"Alaska, I can't." Yuna tapped me before placing her hands on her knees and facing the floor.
She was having trouble breathing, I could hear her struggle.
"Hey, hey." I crouch down as I held her back. "Yuna, this isn't your first time performing."
"I know but— I can't fail. I don't want to fail. If I fail then I'll let everyone down and, I really love our group. I'm so scared." Yuna breathed out.
"Okay Yuna breathe." I instructed. "Breathe in 1, 2, 3, 4, 5. Breathe out 6, 7, 8, 9, 10."
"I feel like I'm going to cry." Yuna spoke as she held her chest. "I'm sorry, I don't want to seem dramatic—"
"You're not dramatic, I totally understand." I got up and hugged her. "But I got you, I'm here for you don't ever feel like you're being dramatic when it comes to things like this, okay?"
Yuna nodded as she pulled away.
"I'm feeling a bit more better, let's go." Her face full of concern.
"Just like we practiced, okay? You were born to be an idol." I reassure her before joining the others on stage.
And when the music started I finally felt myself feel more at ease, something I didn't feel while performing at the survival show.
"An endless night." Akari started the song. "Stupid feelings held back by no love."
The members who were mainly singing or rapping were me, Rima, Nina, and Yuna. Yeimy, Aaliyah, and Ayaka were more of the sub vocalists for the background vocals.
I think that it was a good experience.
I think all the members enjoyed the moment, the way Aaliyah and Rima hit the drums which by the way; Aaliyah wasn't originally a drummer.
I'm glad Rima taught Aaliyah how to do the drums because Rima was needed to rap for this performance.
"We are the lovesick girls, you can't just end this love even if I'm all alone." Yuna sang the chorus as she should because she was center. "We are the lovesick girls, I'm nothing without this evident reoccurring pain."
The instruments being played behind us as we danced was so loud and powerful I think you could hear it from outside these walls.
It was so fun, it was the most fun I had performing.
I saw the smile in the judge's eyes including Psy, I just hope that he saw us for our talent and not just because we were already known for being in a JYP survival show.
I know how the media will look, "Pnation's new girl group with popular trainees from JYP!"
And it'll suck to hear the words from the public being, "they only debuted because they were already popular from the survival show, they don't have actual talent."
And I'll do my best to ignore those comments, I've prepared for the worse.
"But why we still looking for love?" I sang the last line as we hold our ending pose and try our best to not breathe harshly.
How do idols manage to breathe harshly have it sound normal? I sound like a dying horse!
Okay, I tried to ignore the fact that Felix was also a judge but I can't do it anymore.
How the fuck was he a judge? More importantly, why? He hasn't been in the industry for like 7 years!
I'm genuinely confused.
Once we went backstage because the other groups had to perform, I chugged a bottle of water like the other members did.
"Alaska, I think you really sold it to him." Aaliyah looked at me.
"What do you mean? You did so well with the drums!" I complimented her back. "You're basically on Rima's level!"
"Hey! No one can get on my level, I'm simply too cool." Rims interrupted with a smirk.
"Alaska?" A voice called out which made me turn my head.
As the girls all laughed and talked I walked behind a curtain to the voice and see Felix.
Great.
"You did great." He smiled.
"Thanks." I say and turn around to walk away only to be dragged back.
"I'm sorry for saying that I didn't think you would make it." He spoke quietly.
"Are you now? Because I remember you saying—"
"Listen, I was just worried! I was trying to protect you, I didn't want you to leave and I thought that if I told you that this was your last chance that maybe you would take it seriously." He explained as he let go of my arm.
Oh I am tired of this boy, I'm so annoyed I could punch his pretty little face.
I know that it will cause me pain again, but still...
