The Audition || Felix FF || Stray Kids ✔

55

𝑪𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝑵𝒖𝒎𝒃𝒆𝒓 55
You make me feel special

"You should totally be our leader! That would be so cool!" Momoka cheered.

"Ah," My cheeks flushed at the compliments all the girls gave me. "Ladies, I don't think that I should—"

"You take care of all of us! You're like our second mom, I know it's a huge responsibility but none of us can handle that. We know you can." Rima nods her head.

"You will be a great leader, Alaska! Please." Yuna smiled at me.

All the girls agreed, the thought of being the leader hasn't really crossed my mind. It scared me to say the least.

I have to take care of all of them, I'm scared I'll let them down. I remember at JYP when I trained for 3 months after I was kicked that I felt so alone.

I'm not alone anymore.

And I'm so grateful for the opportunity I got but I think being the leader is a stretch, right?

"I don't want to let you all down." I chuckled nervously. "I feel like I'm going to make more mistakes."

"And you'll learn from those mistakes! We all make mistakes and some of us aren't educated very well but what's important is that with every mistake we can learn what we did wrong. We can change it." Nina rubbed my back. "We need you to be our leader, no one else wants to."

"Alright," I smiled with reassurance. "But I'm not a super chill leader, I mean I can be strict—"

"We know." Aaliyah laughed. "But that's how we get better."

"And I also can be stubborn—"

"We know!" They all replied with a laugh.

"Alaska, you have flaws and we all know you do but you are stronger than all of us. You had to face one of your biggest challenges yet, the fear of your career being over but it's just started. Please say yes." Yeimy added.

"Fine." I finally gave in as the girls finally gave in. "I'll do it for you guys."

The rest of the day we practiced again, the members from different units kept calling after me for help.

I truly felt like a mom at this point, it's quite funny actually. Is this what Chan feels like?

A foreign feeling came upon me after practice was over, I haven't really felt it in a long time.

I felt happy.

Even if the stress of debuting and practicing was weighing me down, I didn't really mind it. Why? Because I had my friends with me, the ones who believe in me. I don't feel the loneliness I used to feel.

I'm glad I found the people I would debut with.

• • •

Day of the Showcase

"Come on, hurry up! We have the showcase today!" I went into everyone's room and ripped their sheets off.

Brutal I know but these people weren't the morning type and they could sleep in all they wanted if it wasn't for me.

"Ya, Alaska why don't we relax for a bit? You made us practice till 4 in the morning last night." Yuna groaned as her face fell back onto her pillow.

I felt bad, of course I felt bad because I didn't mean to overwork them but at the same time I needed them to be ready. There couldn't be anymore mistakes, we had 5 weeks and I tried to get them as ready as I could possibly get them to be.

It's funny how I used to think Chan was super bossy during his survival show but now I understand his intentions. He had to be strict because he cared for everyone on his team.

With that in mind, I made sure everything was perfect last night.

Should we practice one last time today?

Of course.

"We only got 8 hours of sleep." Rima got up and glared at me. "How are you not tired? You didn't even sleep!"

I laughed awkwardly as the girls looked at me with widened eyes like I was some crazy lady.

"What? I had to work on things." I explained my actions with a nervous chuckle.

"You need to get your sleep though, you haven't slept for 3 days." Nina frowned.

"After the showcase, maybe I'll get some sleep but now we have to be heading to Pnation to practice one last time and head next door to the stage." I nodded. "Now get up."

The girls got up slowly and went to take a shower, I already took a shower and also cooked for the group.

Breakfast was ready in the living room since they liked to watch shows while they eat.

I sat on the bed as I rubbed my eyes, I was actually really tired. The anxiety I had for today has kept me from sleeping, I made sure to check back on the track I made for our showcase to make sure everything sounded okay.

I practiced my rap as well and I still gave to warm up for today, it felt so exhausting but then again making music is really fun.

Once we were on the bus the company provided to get to the stage, I felt the nerves eat me up. But I didn't and shouldn't show it, the other girls were just as nervous and I didn't want them to be.

"Alaska, I'm so nervous do you think it's a bad time to back out?" Rima took my hands and shook them vigorously as I face palmed myself.

"It'll be fine, we all practiced and I know you guys will do good. Just like we rehearsed." I smiled as I patted her back. "I believe in you, you are so talented and anyone could see that. You will not mess up, trust me."

Rima smiled gently and nodded her head as she held my hand and turned to the side to grab Nina's hand.

It was really going to happen.

Momoka, Rima, Nina, Yuna, Aaliyah, Akari, Yeimy, Riria, and Ayaka were going to be my group members if we debut. 10 members.

That's not too bad is it? It's many members but also not too many.

10 or nothing. Believe in 10.

"We're here." The driver announces which made all of our heads shoot up.

Shit, what if I start vomiting or embarrass myself by falling on stage?

The nerves just reminded me of how the survival show was, it wasn't pleasant at all.

It's literally our last chance, if not then we would take another 5 years to debut or we'll change companies.

And I don't want to wait or change companies, I really like it here.

I'm not worried about the members making mistakes though, and I know some people may be worried for Nina who did make a mistake in the survival show.

But I believe in her, she's improved a lot and has shown her hard work through training. Even when she got eliminated she didn't stop training or fighting for her dream, I admire her for that.

Now let's hope her dream will turn into a reality.