Alaska is a normal teenage girl who loves to dance, she isn't asian in any way though. She didn't expect to make it into JYP entertainment but to her surprise it was Felix Lee who helped her get in, she needs to debut or else it'll be all for nothin...
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𝑪𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝑵𝒖𝒎𝒃𝒆𝒓 69 Iknow it's a lie, Nevertheless
"I have to get back to the dorms." I stated.
"I'm sorry for hurting you, I really truly was trying to protect you.. I never meant those hurtful words and I never wanted you to ever feel invalidated. Let me prove myself to you." Felix pleaded.
"Felix." I looked at him sternly. "This is an old situation, we need to move on from what we used to have."
"But I don't want to, I never moved on." Tears formed in his eyes. "I still have feelings for you."
"Felix." I stared back at him feeling my throat close up. "Don't do this... Please."
"You know what Chan told me?" Felix said.
I scoffed before looking at him giving him the benefit of the doubt.
"What?" I replied and crossed my arms.
"He said that you're allowed to have feelings or attraction to someone for about 5 months." He started. "But if it's longer than that and you still have the same feelings, you're in love."
I looked at him with a frown, I remember that quote. Damn it. Don't tell he actually believes in that.
"I have had the same feelings for since you were kicked out, I never stopped." Felix confessed. "And I hope that you feel the same way."
Felix took both of my hands and held them as he stared at my lips.
"Can I kiss you?" He asked as he looked at my eye for approval.
I shook my head no before stepping back and closing the door in his face.
My heart was jumping, thats so close.. He wanted to kiss me. He still feels something for me even if I don't think I return those feelings. What do I do?
• • •
"Well, I don't think she's changed." Nina shrugged as she bit into meat she had on her chopsticks.
"Yeah, I agree... I don't know Mako like that but she's done a lot to show she's selfish, I think we should be nice to her in public but we can't ever be friends with her." Yuna nodded her head.
"I just— I just didn't know she was like this." Rima sighed. "She's always cared for me and was so nice to me, we haven't talked since the survival show so she's probably changed."
I could tell Rima was disappointed, she looked up to Mako a lot since Mako took care of her during her trainee years.
I don't want to be friends with Mako, I can't trust her again but I can be civil with her in public.
"And what about Felix?" Nina questioned.
"Yeah, I saw that you and Felix have something going on." Rima wiggled her eyebrows at me with a smirk.
"Its nothing." I shook my head with a chuckle.
"Alaska has a crush on Chan it seems, I don't think she has feelings for Felix." Nina frowned.
"Its not that I don't have the same feelings." I sighed. "I mean I don't think I return his feelings but since I like Chan I don't know my true genuine feelings, like I'm so confused. My feelings are all over the place!"
"Well you're allowed to date anyone now, tell Chan how you feel and if he doesn't return the feelings then you have time to think for yourself and your feelings for Felix." Yuna advised.
"I'll tell him tonight." I smiled at the girls. "I can do it."
"Damn, you're actually quite bold how can you be that bold? I wouldn't even tell Jungwon I have a crush on him." Rima snorted.
"Thats because you saw him performing at MAMAs one time and fell in love." Yuna rolled her eyes.
"Hey!" Rima playfully slapped her arm. "He's very talented."
I laughed with the girls as Rima and Yuna bicker about the boy from Enhypen, it was quite amusing how Yuna wasn't a fan about relationships. I liked that about her. She didn't need anyone and she didn't want anyone, she was fine with just spending time with us.
Yuna is amazing.
• • •
I sneakily got into JYPE around 10 at night. It was so scary honestly, I didn't want to run into JYP himself because that would be so awkward.
I almost cried at the nostalgia I had, the building has some new improvements but for the most part a lot of things stayed the same. I got into the elevator and clicked on the floor which led to Chan's production room where he held Chan's room.
He asked me to go on a track with him, he was working on a solo project and insisted that I help him record some parts.
This was the time I would tell him how I felt. I got this!
"Channie!" I exclaimed as I entered the room and hugged him tightly.
"Alaska!" He giggled and hugged me back before telling me to sit next to him.
"I have something to tell you before we talk about the track." I smiled brightly.
"Me too! Don't tell anyone anything yet but I finally asked Sana out and she said yes!" Chan smiled widely.
What?
"What?" I asked with a small frown. "What do you mean ask out?"
"I asked her to be my girlfriend and she said yes, I've waited to ask her for a long time I just didn't have the guts till now." Chan chuckled.
They were dating now? Seriously? But how? When? But I thought we shared the same feelings.
My heart sank down to my stomach as I smiled widely and playfully punched him. I began to tease him about her to distract myself from the truth.
He liked her. He chose her. He's always wanted to be with her.
I guess... I guess Chan was just a friendly guy, anyone could get it confused with attraction.
"Listen, can we film the track tomorrow actually? I just remembered I had to check in on Nina, she's feeling a little sick and I wouldn't want it to get worse." I told him.
"Thats okay, I hope she turns out just fine.. Bye, Alaska."Chan smiled as I walked out.
I was hurt. My heart felt shattered, it was unrequited feelings. I felt like crying but nothing came out, I just felt empty. I felt stupid for even thinking he might share the same feelings, of course he liked Sana.
Sana is so beautiful and she's been in Twice so of course she's super talented. I respected her a lot.
Why couldn't I be as successful as her? Maybe then he would see me differently?
