Alaska is a normal teenage girl who loves to dance, she isn't asian in any way though. She didn't expect to make it into JYP entertainment but to her surprise it was Felix Lee who helped her get in, she needs to debut or else it'll be all for nothin...
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𝑪𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝑵𝒖𝒎𝒃𝒆𝒓 72 I know my feelings are real, but still Nevertheless
"When you hold me in the street, and you kiss me on the dance floor. I wish that it could be like that, why can't it be like that.. 'Cause I'm yours." I fixed my earpiece as the stage floor brings me up to level so I can step out onto the stage.
This time I had more time to soak in the audience, I had more time for appreciate everyone who had came.
I'm so happy that people enjoyed my music and knew who I was even if I was a foreigner in here. There will never be a time more greater than being an idol, of course there was ups and downs. I mean look at my career! I almost ruined it because of Felix, because of my little mistake. I went through a lot but thankfully I didn't give up. Being in this moment right now... It was worth it. It was absolutely worth it.
"When you're with him, do you call his name, like you do when you're with me? Does it feel the same, would you leave if I was ready to settle down. Or would you play it safe and stay?" Felix came from behind me as he held my hand and began to dance with me.
Man I felt like I was at prom, I remember giving Daniel a weird look as he told us how to dance. Like seriously, this is a dance you would dance with a partner at prom or homecoming.
I was so close to Felix it made me scared of the public again, I don't want to be trashed around like the public did when we were both rumoured to be dating.
"Why can't I say that I'm in love? I want to shout it from the roof top."
The public was screaming for sure, it was probably confusing to see a man who supposedly has a girlfriend with a girl getting so close to him.
"Wish we could be like that." The ending pose... Well.........
WELL......
LET'S JUST SAY IT CAN SPARK UP SOME RUMOURS.
It's not my fault! Daniel said it's apart of the choreography and I need to stay professional!
Was I secretly enjoying it?
Yes.
Felix and I were in the position where it looks like we're kissing from different angles but we really weren't, that would really be unprofessional if we did... Felix's hands were on my cheeks and I had one hand on his chest and the other wrapped around his neck.
But in that 15 seconds of holding each other close for the ending, we stared at each other. Not one of us blinking away from each other's eyes, his eyes were still as beautiful as ever and I could see some if his freckles escaping the foundation laid perfectly on his face.
I knew what my answer is. I'm going to tell him.
I was going to tell him that I love him.
• • •
"Alaska. What the fuck!" Nina barged into my dressing room. "You never told me you and Felix were going to be eating each other's faces off for the performance!"
"We didn't kiss! It was just the pose I promise!" I defended and shook my hands.
"What's the public going to think? What's PSY going to think? It'll spark up rumors and Felix and Nancy are still together—"
"I got this under control, Nina." I smiled. "Thanks for worrying but I already spoke about it with PSY and he's okay with our performance.
"Well." Nina gave me a suspicious look before sitting next to me. "Are we allowed to go to the after party?"
"Yes." I replied as I quickly fanned myself with those portable fans. "Go have fun, I'll be going too."
"Are you finally letting loose? Oh my like actually? Its been four years since you've let loose!" Nina clapped her hands. "We're going to get so drunk!"
"If you girls have any trouble please let me know so I can help." I said before picking up my things and following Nina out to the audience to sit at our group table.
I should probably tell her about Felix. I don't know if I should though, would the girls be disappointed? I haven't talked about Felix to them since we debuted. Sure, it came up sometimes but I never talked about it for long since it was a sensitive subject.
• • •
"Wow." I chuckled as I entered the huge venue, there was a stage and a long bar. Seats were also all over the part and the lighting was very dim, there was TXT, Enhypen, Red Velvet, and NCT already drinking and having fun.
"I'm going to go talk to Jungwon." Rima winked as she and Yuna walked away.
I excused myself to the girls before walking up to the boy I was afraid to face all night.
"Alaska! So glad you could make it!" Chan snuggled his face into my neck as he hugged me tightly.
He was sitting next to Sana who was wearing a beautiful red dress that fell on her long legs.
"Ah, I thought it would be fun so why not try." I chuckled as we pulled away.
"I'm a lot more better at english, thanks to Chan." Sana told me before smiling at the guy.
It made me feel sad but at the same time I felt happy for Chan, all I ever wanted since I met him was for him to be happy. For him to fall in love, and Sana have gave that to him. I wanted someone to take care of Chan like he took care of me.
And I trust Sana will take good care of him. She is perfect for him.
"You guys look perfect together." I smiled at the both of them. "Invite me to the wedding."
Chan's ears turned red as he looked at Sana with a nervous chuckle, she just teasingly punched my arm before I said goodbye and looked for a drink.
