Alaska is a normal teenage girl who loves to dance, she isn't asian in any way though. She didn't expect to make it into JYP entertainment but to her surprise it was Felix Lee who helped her get in, she needs to debut or else it'll be all for nothin...
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𝑪𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝑵𝒖𝒎𝒃𝒆𝒓 61
Honestly I did have feelings for other people, And that's my sin
"It sounds like crack, its like a drug I love it!" Yeimy giggles as I let the girls hear the outcome of the song.
"It's definitely out there, I hope it gets attention." Momoka smiles.
"Of course it will, I'll put you on promotion for 3 weeks to start. Think you can handle it?" Psy chuckled as he sat down on the computer chair next to me.
Jacob had already left which left me alone with the girls and Psy, Psy kept telling me to replay the song over and over again because apparently it's really good.
I'm glad my boss likes it, it made me proud. Like seriously, everything i worked for has sort of paid off.
"3 weeks? Oh jeez." Aaliyah takes a second to recollect.
"Now, this is just the title track. Its your first single but if you want to make your debut more memorable we can push for am album, Alaska you don't have to produce and write the songs of course if that's too much stress—"
"No! It's okay, I can deal with it." I smiled. "There's a few songs I've been working on."
"Really?" Psy looked at me with an uncertain smile. "Well... I guess I could let you and Jacob work together for a bit more."
"Is there a deadline you need it by?" I asked.
"Well it's currently what? August? I need 5 new songs by late September. I plan to have the concept photos took by the end of this month and also the starting of September. After all of that, we'll push your debut and everything to be released November." Psy said as he typed some things onto the laptop on the table.
"Where will we be promoting?" Nina asked.
"Since you are an international group well start promoting in America, you'll be performing for James Corden and Jimmy Fallon but thats if they accept. Maybe Ellen—"
"Kind of really don't want to go with Ellen, can we just stick to the first two?" Aaliyah interrupted and then quickly apologized.
"It's fine." Psy laughed. "But why? Ellen would be a great time."
"She's going to ask us things about relationships and who we've been keeping an eye on, I don't like her vibes. I know publicity is good but I don't feel comfortable." Yeimy explained.
It would be worse on me as well since I had a dating scandal rumor pop up.
"Alright, well after promoting in America we'll bring you back to Korea and have you promote on like 3 shows." Psy smiled as he typed more on his laptop.
"I'm so nervous." Riria chuckled.
"No need to be nervous, it'll be so exciting you'll love being on stage." Psy reassured. "They will love you girls."
As Psy left the room to go deal with his other meetings I looked at the members with a puzzled look.
"Why do you guys seem sad?" I asked.
They all had concerning frowns scattered on their faces. I thought they'd be excited?
"It's all happening too fast, I feel like we won't have time to—" Momoka started.
"Calm down." Yuna rubbed her back. "Alaska has got our back and she make sure everyone is up to speed."
Right. Because thats my job. I have to make sure everything is correct and ready. Even if its a big time I can take it! Right?
• • •
"Fuck." I scribbled the lyric on my notebook and accidently hit the piano to my right when I slam my arm down. "Fuck this song."
5 songs. 5 songs I needed to write, why did I tell him it would be okay? Did I say that because I felt too cocky or because I wanted to impress him? I need to have 5 songs ready by late September and its early August.
The album had to be dark, I wanted it to be dark. But I also don't want it to be scary, more of a emotional yet reassuring trip.
I finished the first song some time ago but I need to wait for Jacob to see what he thinks. The pressure is bad, and I also need to make sure my group is catching up.
"Hey, you good?" A voice poked out from the door behind me.
Why is he here at the worse times? I'm sick of it.
"Can you leave me alone, I need to concentrate and I can't deal with your bullshit Felix." I groaned.
"Look I'm sorry, I know I'm the last person you want to see but I don't want you to stress out right now. What's going on?" The boy walks in and closes the door as he takes a seat next to me.
"What makes you think I'll trust you with how I feel right now?" I glared at him. "I'm not telling you shit, if you want to come and try to redeem yourself you're in the wrong place. I'm extremely pissed right now and I'm at a breaking point."
"Alaska." Felix starts as he looks at me. "I don't care about our past right now, we need to focus on what's bothering you right now."
I was taken aback because of his statement, was that a bit backhanded?
"Stop it." I look away as I felt my eyes sting.
"Stop what? Stop caring?" Felix asked as he rolled his seat closer to me.
"Stop pretending to act like you give a fuck after what happened before. I have to tolerate being around you because we're in the same industry so we're bound to meet again but this right here is just... cruel." I look back at him with a disgusted look. "You hurt me, I've told you how I felt and I know you can feel it. Being around you just because you want to is not benefiting me well."
Felix's eyes fell and he frowns understanding my words.
"I know I apologized and I can't take back what happened, but someday I'll tell you the truth." He stands up and nods his head. "I'm so sorry for hurting you, Alaska. You trusted me at your lowest and I treated you bad at the end of our fling. And that's my sin."
He doesn't say another word as he exists the room leaving me in utter silence. He finally left me alone.
