Promise

chapter 66

We sat on the sofa, we both had ice-cream and I could see he was nervous. I had never seen him like this before. I wasn't sure what to expect or if I'd like it. But he almost seemed afraid to tell me. It was going to be bad,  if he was scared then it had to be bad. "Avery I want you to know, you mean the world to me. Nothing will ever change that" he begins and I nod "you're starting to worry me Elijah, what is it" he friend at my words but he plasters on what was obviously a fake smile. "So Sarah, your mother" he starts and I almost drop my ice-cream. This wasn't good. Nothing about my mother was ever good. "No please Elijah, I don't want to talk about her" I feel tears start to fall down my cheek. "Oh sweetheart" he said and quickly pulled me into a hug. "Avery what did she do" he asked after a few minutes of hugging. "She hurt me" I say, he already knew that. "Yes I know but I'd like specifics. Was just mentally abusive too, did she cause any of your scars?" He asked and I filled. I suppose I should tell him. But his reaction to when he thought I had done drugs was awful, I don't want him to know that I've actually had them in my system before. But I need to be honest in order to move on. "She hit me, she starved me, she was neglectful and she verbally abused me" I whisper and I feel him tighten his hold. "I'm so sorry Avery, I should have tried harder, I let you down" he mumbled and I felt guilty but I knew I had to continue. "She did something else too" he meets my eyes and I gulp. It's now or never. "Just please don't be angry with me, I swear I hated it, I tried to stop her" I say feeling the fear creep up. "Fuck. Avery I won't be angry with you, please tell me" his concern grew and so I decided to get it over with quickly "you probably already were told she died of a drug overdose but she wasn't just using the drugs for herself, she would inject me with stuff. I'm so sorry Elijah" I cry and as I wait for his reaction I feel a sense of dread. "Thank you for telling me, don't worry I'm not angry with you Avery" he reassured and I breathed a sigh of relief. "Now it's your turn, what did you want to say" I tell him trying to change the topic. "Let's just watch TV, you're upset, we will talk once everything is ok" he said and I nodded in agreement. I didn't want to end up having a breakdown.

Elijah

That bitch drugged my princess. I was beyond angry but I couldn't show it or Avery would think I was angry with her. I was however surprised that she had no health problems. I wanted to bring Sarah back to life and kill her myself. Maybe I could dig her body up and cut it into pieces and burn it, maybe that will ease my anger.
What the fuck Elijah, Avery is sat next to you and you're considering murder

I quickly focused on Avery who had seemed to calm down in the time I had been in my silent murderous rage.

It's now or never. She told me something that was hard so I must do the same. She will never forgive me though, I didn't try hard enough to find her
"I'm sorry I should have tried harder to find you. You see I mentioned Sarah because 15 years ago, Sarah was my girlfriend" I start and she snaps her head towards me. "What are you saying Elijah"  "sweetheart, the necklace you wear was a gift from your father, from me. I swear I looked for you, I searched every day for you. I never stopped searching, only when I found out you were my daughter did I stop" I say and she looks at me with shock. "Why didn't they contact you when Sarah died, they said they couldn't find my father or any other relatives" she asked in confusion. "I don't know hun, Sarah changed her last name she was good at hiding" I said with sadness. "Why didn't they find you through a DNA test then. Why are you saying this, I can't be your daughter" she was freaking out now and I started to believe that I made a huge mistake. "Avery I am, please believe me. You were 3 months old when you got taken. You always slept with your pink blanket and Miss Cuddles, she was a blue  teddy" I say hoping that she would believe me. "I..I need time" she whispered and I nodded. "Of course, I'll go cook dinner" I say knowing she wanted to be left alone.

Please believe me sweetheart.

Avery

Everything seemed to stop. As he left everything started to become more real. He was my father. But what did this mean? Why didn't social services find him, he was a well known billionaire, surely it wasn't to hard. The more and more I thought about it,the more I started to feel light headed. This was too much.

I finally made up my mind and went to the kitchen. I had to talk to Elijah. I had to tell him.

Elijah
I did my best at making dinner but tears fell making my eyes blurry. She was going to hate me, she probably already did by now. I couldn't loose her. I wiped my eyes and produced a fake smile when I heard her open the door.

"Hey Elijah" she greets. Ok that's a start, she was talking to me.
"Hey" I reply.
"I've made up my decision" she states and I feel nervous. What was her decision going to be. Of course she probably hates me .
"I want to go back to the orphanage..." No.no.no.
After she said orphanage, I felt my world crumble, she wanted to leave me. She really did hate me, it was worse than I expected. I saw her mouth move as she spoke but I didn't register anything instead I broke down crying.
How could I be do stupid. I've lost my little girl