Pretend Haters (COMPLETED)

Pretend Haters 38- I Can't Stop Thinking About You and I

PRETEND HATERS 38

Shaira Kryzel Lim's P.O.V.

I am currently writing on my diary. Nagalangan pa nga akong isulat. Paano kung magkita kami ni kidlat at mabasa niya ito? Magseselos kaya kay Zion? Nakailang page na rin ako ng tungkol sa kaniya. Napasimangot ako bigla. Bakit nga naman siya magseselos eh samantalang kaibigan lang naman niya ako? Sinampal ko konti ang sarili ko. Di ko talaga kayang hindi siya isipin kahit anong sabi kong tama na o kalimutan ko lang siya kahit ilang araw. I manage that for one month only. Ngayon wala na.

But on the other side, I'm happy. Kahit wala siya, may tao namang pumuwang ng kakulangan sa puso ko. Zion. Siya na siguro ang pumalit sa kaniya. Bakit ang sakit sa puso nito? No one knows how close are we. Could I really forget that person after all these years? Siguro nga. Kung nagawa kong mahalin si Ethan, siguro naman pati kay Zion. I already have feelings for him that I can't deny.

I hope that the heart consists of many spaces, so that I can make a room for all the people I love. No sacrificing of who must leave. No choice to make, but just decisions to make to improve relationships and to just simply love myself and others.

Love is like a rose that if you do not follow the direction of the air, its stem will broke and its beauty will fade. And a love that is broken can't be fix easily by an individual. There is a teamwork, a pairing. It is not about the beat of the pulse or your heart racing like the beat of a drum. It is not just about the feelings you felt everyday, but the feelings of each other that is a must to consider.

Love involves communication, understanding and patience. That without all those virtues and elements, even there's love, there is no certain connection or spark. It might lead to misunderstanding and fight or worse is where you are in the situation where the only option is to leave. Love will not work if just one will persevere, it requires two to go on and to reach into the apex of both of your goals.

Sinarado ko yun at binalik sa dating lalagyan nito. Titingnan ko yung oras. 3:12 na ng hapon. Kagagaling ko lang sa driving class. Inaral ko lang doon ang drifting tapos umuwi na ako.

Niyakap ko ang bear. Biglang may nakita ako ritong tag na nakasabit sa collar ng bear. 'I will miss you'. Yung lalaking yun kahit masungit sa umpisa, may sweetness pala sa huli. And looks like a smile would always crept automatically in my lips. Para akong laging nakangiti kahit minsan iniisip kong wala namang dahilan. Baliw na ata ako.

Paano kaya kung ako naman ang umamin?

O kaya paano kung maging kami?

Ito na ba yung komunikasyon na sinasabi?

Biglang tumunog ang phone ko. It's from Zion.

Zion: So, what are you thinking now? Alam mo naiisip kasi kita.

Shaira: You know what? I can't stop thinking about You and I.

Zion: :)

Si Zion nagsmiley? Ang cute naman.

Shaira: So, tapos ka na ba sa kakadaydream sa akin? Noong una nagkita sabi mo ako ang nagdadaydream sa'yo. What happen now? Natamaan ka sa charms ko?

Zion: Well, you got my heart flutter again. Gayuma? (Insert my smirk)

Gayuma?! Nanliligaw ba ito?

Shaira: Gayuma your face! Ayoko na! Bahala ka!

Message failed to send!

Pero napunta lang sa outbox ko ang tinext ko. Bakit hindi nagsend? Kainis naman! Kinuha ko yung balance ko sa operator. Pero ang nakuha kong sagot ay dahil wala na daw akong load. Fudge! Pulubi much? Humingi pala ako kay Cheska ng sampung piso kahapon. Ubos! Paano ko na siya matetext niyan? Wrong timing.