Love Far Beyond the Ashes

Zombie's Thoughts

Ollie pov: Why is Reine mad at me when I've done nothing wrong? She acts like Mika called her ugly or something, and now she's run away, and she even yelled at me.

"I'm going to go pick her up. You want to come, Shachou?" Moona-senpai asked

"No Peko," Pekora-senpai stated.

"Okay, I'll head out then," Moona-senpai stated.

"Hold on, can I go instead?" Anya asked

"Why not?" Moona-senpai sighed

I want to go-which is what I wanted to say, but I stopped myself. I clearly am being a coward by not being able to confront my girlfriend.

"For no reason?" Her angry outburst resonated in my head and made me think maybe she is insecure about herself. I know she still doesn't think she is beautiful.

"Earth to Ollie!" Iofi-senpai yelled

"Sorry..." I mumbled, only to be shaken by the alien girl.

"Are you going or not?" She asked me

"No, I don't have a reason to go!" I told Iofi-senpai

"Are you dense!?" Iofi-senpai asked me angrily.

"Don't be rude; I just have nothing to say to her!" I angrily defended

"You don't have to say anything; just be there!" Iofi-senpai retorted

She grabbed me by my clothes and began to thrash me around. I wanted to punch her, but she blocked my attack.

"You are so irritating!" Iofi-senpai hissed

"Why am I always the damn fall guy!?" I yelled

"Because you refuse to understand your girlfriend, you think you've done nothing wrong, and that's the problem. You need to understand that you need to ask her if she's okay!" Iofi-senpai yelled

I glared deep into Iofi-senpai's eyes. Moona-senpai ran back and pushed us away from one another.

"Break it up..." Moona-senpai scoffed

I growled and turned my back on all of them. They don't understand me at all. Anya walked over to me and turned her arm into a blade before stabbing it into me. "Why!?" I asked

"You are coming to apologize to Reine!" She yelled This was the most assertive she's ever been. She really was angry at me for some reason. "Come on, Ollie, wake up!" She screamed

I looked at it from her point of view. I saw Reine was sad, but I never went to check on her and never asked if she was okay. I just continued on like nothing happened.

It may have been Mika's fault that Reine was mad, but it's my fault for not checking up on my girlfriend. That is honestly fair; they should get on my case for that.

"I still can't go..." I sighed

Iofi-senpai grabbed me and began to drag me away from the group. I could tell from her aura that this wasn't good for me. She seemed livid that I couldn't choose. Reine

"You sound like your brother!" Iofi-senpai yelled

I sound like Astel; there is no way I sound like him. If I sounded like him, then I wouldn't care about Reine at all, and I do. That's why I bashed him with a metal pole the other day.

Now I just feel awful. I haven't been thinking about how Reine feels, only how I feel, and I'm sick of being rejected as Calli's mother, and I'm tired of everyone not taking me seriously.

Iofi-senpai threw me to the ground in annoyance. "Learn how to act," she told me.

How to act "I don't know how to do that," I said.

Iofi-senpai sighed and picked me back up, slamming me against a tree roughly.

"Figure it out..." She growled

I don't know how to figure it out. Reine isn't in front of me. I don't know what to say to her.

I'm so annoyed. How can I not know what to tell my girlfriend? I'm sure Reine would know what to tell me if I was in this type of slump, so now what?

I want to figure out what I should say to her. Should I compliment her back, or is that too much to ask for?

Iofi-senpai leaned against the tree, and she growled once again, this time to clear the silence.

"Figure it out soon; we have to go back..." She said

"I have hurt Reine in the past too because you don't understand her, and it's frustrating because I'm not trying to hurt her; I'm only trying to be her girlfriend," I said.

Iofi-senpai didn't even reply to me; she just began to play with her hair and make it look good.

"I mean, I didn't know about her back then, and I didn't know she didn't want anyone to touch it back then, and I messed up, but at the same time, I feel like there is more I don't know, like she's hiding some stuff from me. It feels as if we are so distant despite dating, so can you really blame me for not knowing much about her?" I asked

"Ollie, stop making excuses." Iofi-senpai sighed

I closed my eyes. Was I making excuses? I am blaming her for not knowing much about her when it is me who has failed to even try to learn more about her. All the things she has told me were of her own volition or she had no choice but to traumatize me. I really need to learn about her.

If I don't learn about Reine, then maybe I should just cut us off, but I don't want that ever.

"Iofi-senpai, how do you bond with Risu-senpai?" I asked

"Well, we just talk; it's not that hard." Iofi-senpai claimed

Just talk. How the hell do I start a conversation with her when she is angry at me? She probably won't want to talk to me, and then I'll have to do something big to win her over. Maybe that's a good thing.

All I know is that this will be tough.

"You're overthinking this..." Iofi-senpai claimed

She may be right about that.