Choco pov: "Pass another drink." I mumbled as I reached for another bottle, but Subaru pulled the bottle away from me.
"Stop..." Aqua-sama said
"But she hates me, Aqua-sama!" I whined
I clung onto Shion-sama like a child holding their teddy bear and continued to cry.
"Choco-sensei, you can't keep crying." Botan was right. You need to end this and confront her. Ayame-Dono told me
I threw myself away from Shion and tackled Ayame-dono to the ground like a feral animal.
"Are you going to kiss me?" Ayame-dono asked
"Urk..." I went as I felt her punch me in the stomach. "W-why!?" I asked
"You can't run away forever!" Ayame-dono yelled
"I'm sorry, but can you tell me what happened again since I forgot a lot of stuff?" Subaru asked
"I have a lot of things I need to open up about..." I said
"It's not my place to hear you're leaving... Shion-sama said
"I'm not going into the story; I never have..." I sighed
"You two are so close, you need to suck it up!" Ayame-dono yelled
I shook my head; if it was that simple, then I would have just called her up; we both messed up and we can't face one another, but I think I did something I can't come back from.
"You need to talk to her!" Aqua-sama said
"What the hell do you know, damn it!" I screamed
Everyone went silent once again. I wasn't one to lose their temper, but right now, I really don't want to hear anything negative.
"You are overreacting." Aqua-sama said
My eyes widened despite her timidity. Aqua-Sama really raised her voice and stood her ground; she really wanted me to hear her out.
"Aqua-sama, you wouldn't know if I'm overreacting or not!" I said
"Yes, I do. Until today, I thought Shion hated me!" Aqua-sama yelled
I looked down at the ground. That is true, however, some of this is due to her anxiety. She needs to stop worrying so much. None of them have met Mel-sama. They don't know what she's like. Even though she's the sweetest woman I have met, she does pout.
I can't imagine how she's going to lay into me for looking the other way for so long; we both decided to go our separate ways, and yet I'm trying to reel her back in.
I shook my head and bit down on my lip in order to calm down and sober up a little bit. I couldn't shake this feeling of sadness off. I needed to think about this in a level-headed way, but I couldn't shake this feeling off for some reason. I can't ignore how I feel. I can't push it off.
"Choco-sensei..." Subaru said softly
I looked at her and pulled her in, swiftly kissing her, but I soon realized that not even that made me happy in this moment. I am truly lost.
Mel-sama I wonder what she's thinking about right now. It can't be about me; there is no way she is...
"Choco-sensei, you are holding me still and you're crying," Subaru said.
I slowly began to unwrap my arms and let her go, but instead she held me.
"You need a hug, so let's do that," Subaru said.
"Choco-sensei, we are all on your side!" Shion-sama said
I looked at her, managing to make a small smile. "Are you?" I asked. She nodded slightly.
"Yes, I am," she responded.
I turned my head to the side and sighed, "What am I going to do?" I asked
"We will all go together!" Subaru yelled
"The five of us until the end!" Aqua-sama said
"You couldn't have done anything too bad, and you've said before that you decided to go your separate ways but seemingly regret that, so you'll be able to make amends!" Ayame-dono said
"If any of us drop out, we'll let you punch us." Shion-sama said
"How about I kiss you?" I said
"Yeah, that works," they all said, their faces going red.
"Oh, do you really miss my lips that much?" I asked
None of them could say a word; their brains were fried. I laughed to myself and scratched my head while trying to regain their attention. They were all in a trance.
"We do," they all said in unison.
"Eh?" I said in response.
"We know it just feeds you, but you are so good at kissing," Subaru said.
"Agreed," the other three said.
"I don't know what the hell we're talking about; aren't we supposed to be discussing Mel-sama!?" I asked
"There you go, changing the subject!" Subaru said
"Are you afraid of commitment?" Shion-sama asked.
I didn't want to answer that, even though it's completely wrong. I'm afraid that I'm too committed to Mel-sama; maybe I need to stop thinking about her so much, but she is always on my mind.
"Maybe you should sleep, and we'll head out tomorrow," Subaru suggested.
"I'll take a nap," I yawned.
"Good them, we'll head out," Ayame-Dono said.
Yeah, maybe I need to sleep and clear my head out. I need to think about everything. Maybe Mel-sama will forgive me.
Subaru looked at me and shook her head. "You blame yourself too much," she said.
She was right. I tend to blow things out of proportion, but I worry when I can't think about everything at once. I just need to cool off. I can't keep blaming myself for Mel-sama and I choosing to split up. We are only friends, and yet...
Maybe we made a mistake, but I don't know about that. I will never open this up again. I won't revisit what happened, or at least verbally say it, because I am not comfortable sharing insecurities, even with these four.
Maybe soon I will have to, though...Even if I don't want to.
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Love Far Beyond the Ashes
حركة (أكشن)Calli and Kiara have been separated once again after finally rekindling their flame of love. The two want to reunite with one another by all means necessary and will do anything to achieve that, no matter how hard it may be. They won't let anything...
