Adore me- the fourth novel

Chapter 173- Matthew James Henderson

Matty's POV

Holding Taylor, is like holding no other woman. Truly I don't think I will ever hold onto another in the ways that I have held her.

I will stay in this for the long haul, because it's important to me that even though she's married to Jay, my best friend. Who thinks he has the upper hand on me now. That she realises just how long I will wait for her. Even if it's twenty years. I'll be there, to claim back what is mine.

I glance at Jay quickly with Claire his mum, and I do care for him. I care because I've known him for such a long time. I care because him being happy with a woman believe it or not is important to me. Taylor is not the right person for him, Taylor is mine. Simply because we were supposed to be together.

And call me a snake for getting him on my good side, that's fair. But I love her and even though Ive known him most of my life, she means more.

"Matthew" she says in my arms. And I love how she says my full name.

"Taylor" I say and the only thing I can remember is her moaning my name when we had sex a few nights ago.

Jay thinks I won't let Ross move on her because I respect him. It's not that at all, she's mine. I'm just not stupid enough to ask her to marry me when she's marrying him. There's time.

"What did you two talk about" she asks. I'm a gentlemen and I lower my lips to her ear, my hands on her back.

"We talked about you" I whisper and her breath hitches slightly. I know Taylor. I was with her for just over a year, we conceived a baby together. And I know her reactions inside out. I raise my head to evaluate and look into those eyes. The eyes that will look into mine again, properly.

She dodges me at first but I won't give her what she wants unless she looks into my eyes.

"What about me" she says softly.

She looks into my eyes and there it is, like pure magnetism. Normally I would pull her in and kiss her, and one day I will again. When she asks me too.

"We both care about you Taylor. Jay wanted to make it clear that even though we had sex" I say and she just watches me intently. Her eyes looking into mine and my hands slowly brushing her back. I look over her shoulder briefly. He is unaware, then I catch eyes with her mother. Not good, she is on to me. I look back into Taylor's eyes and she is waiting on me. Taylor's mother remembers me of course, she has already come and said hello twice.

"That I was clear on my position in your life. Even though I already am" I tell her. I do think I'm clever, she assumes that I mean that I am on his side. That my position is just to be her friend, but I don't mean that at all.

"Are you clear" she says surprising me. And I must say I love this side to Taylor. I lower my lips to her ear.

"Play fair with me you know how I feel" I whisper.

I face her again, wait for her eye contact.

"Do you think he thinks I would just do it again" she ponders and I'm shocked by her honesty. This Taylor is new to me. She looks up into my eyes and I get lost this time thinking about being inside of her. Thinking about her calling out my name.

"I'm not sure that he thinks you are the problem" I say finally, assessing her.

"He thinks you might try again" she says and she's thinking out loud. What I would do to try it all again with her right now. I brush her hair back with my fingertips. The song has changed and I've barely even noticed. She just watches me, she doesn't touch me back. My hand travels down her cheek and over her neck.