Adore me- the fourth novel

Chapter 25 -If I dont who else will ?

"I'll bring the car around front" Jay says holding onto my hands the next morning.

We are heading out of the lake house. Not to university. We bunked, if you can't bunk after being held at gunpoint when can you?

I'm waiting outside scouring the vicinity for potential threats or men in masks when the mini comes out the garage and stops in the drive. He opens the door for me and I climb in the passenger side.

"Let's go and buy a dress for the dance, I'll take you. If I don't who else will" he laughs cheekily.

"Oh really, thank you. What a relief I thought you'd never ask" I jibe back smiling.

He drags on a cigarette then opens the window and blows the smoke firmly out of the car.

"I'm worried you know" he says completely out of the blue.

"We could be" he looks down at my waist and chucks his cigarette out. He's barely smoked it.

"We could be" I say smiling.

He flashes a grin back at me, excited and full of wonder. I love that smile, I yearn to make him smile like that day by day.

When we arrive at the dress shop in town, I get excited. The last time we came here we weren't engaged. Now we are and I fully intend on eyeing up the bridal wear. He catches me looking and chuckles.

"The prom thing is an all white event" he adds.

"Just an fyi" he smiles.

"I love you in white" he smirks.

"You're gonna be seeing more of me in white" I say looking through the bridal lingerie. He eyes the garter I'm looking at and he actually blushes.

"I think I'm going to like that a lot" he says clearing his throat.

I grasp his hands and tug him gently over to the dresses. I look at a selection of long ivory dresses all of which are stunning in their own way. I imagine what Rach might wear and I know her well enough by now to know that whatever it is it will be short. I dare to think what Kat will wear. And cringe at the thought of her in white. Like an evil white princess I think and begin laughing.

Jay glances over at me with an expression of shock. He thinks I'm cracking up because of yesterday. Honestly I am a little, but I must hold it all together. I fully intend on going into university tomorrow, Jay just isn't aware of that yet.

"I like this" I say turning to face Jay. I've picked up a simple white dress, it's fit and flare.
I take in the dress he's admiring for me and even though it's not something I would pick for myself I fall for it.

It's a shimmering ivory high neck dress with a low cut v back. It trails to the floor, cut close to the body to accentuate every curve.

"That's stunning" I say shocked.

"One to try on" he smiles.

He heads off to look at the suits, and I go and try on the dresses. I must admit his choice is the best and I go with that one. I head to the counter and purchase my items before he can see. I've picked some lingerie too which is white and will go very well under my dress.

Jay saunters over to us with a new white shirt, it will look amazing on him. The lady behind the till stares at him for a while forgetting herself entirely. I can't blame her. He has a way about him. Tall, handsome and self assured. Rugged blonde hair, light tan and blue eyes. His sleeves are rolled up showing off his muscular toned arms.

His arms find my waist and the shop clerk averts her eyes. It astounds me that he's mine, all mine and that he wants me just as much as I want him. I look up at him smiling briefly and remind myself of when we first met. The first ever time. My opinion of him has changed entirely through the years of knowing him.

I remember myself with Matthew in his small front room in front of the fire and my shock when Matthew's blonde friend, Jay, walked into the room. Denial was my first go to. He's not hot, he will not be mine. Jay, looking every bit the Viking god,   imposing himself on our evening, working me out and his sly smile, his piercing eyes.

The way his stare lingered on my thighs every time he was around me. Him pouring me drinks and making me cocktails at parties just to be close to me. His cheeky grin and the way he refused to be pushed out of my life even as an 'annoying' friend.

And later on in our friendship when his stare would linger not just on my body but in my eyes.
We're in the car now having paid for our outfits and I stare over at him. Remembering all of the moments we stole just to be together. Just to hold each other or even just to talk. I had never felt more alive in my life than when he touched me for the first time. When he stole my kisses and held me in his arms as if I were his own.

"Jay" I say softly.

He turns to me his eyes inquisitive. They set me alight and I get out of the car. I climb into the backseat, and he cranes his neck around smiling.
I unbutton my shirt and let it swing open grateful that the windows are blacked out. He watches me his eyes full of lust. I pull my skirt up around my waist and touch myself lightly.

He climbs out of the drivers seat to join me in the back. When he opens the door I lay flat down on the seats and he climbs on top of me pulling my panties to the side and pushing himself into me instantly.

"Taylor" he sighs.

"Couldn't wait till we get home?" He says softly kissing my ear and my neck.

"No. I need you now" I say back to him. Glancing up into his blue eyes, his blonde hair trailing down into his eyes.

"Mmmm" he says looking at me.

"I need you all the time" he smiles and thrusts into me.

"I don't ever want to go anywhere out of our little bubble of life" I say and I'm shocked at myself. I need him. I need him all the time too.

He thrusts into me delicately and I moan.

"I will keep you forever" he whispers.
"With me" he whispers softly kissing my neck.

"I love you Jay" I tell him in his ear. And he thrusts deep inside of me.

"You're the best thing that ever happened to me, and thank you for saving me last night and saving me every night" I say softly.

"I love you" he moans in my ear.

We orgasm together in the back of his SUV, him holding himself into me.

I chuckle lightly as he looks directly into my eyes still on top of me.
"That was intense" he says breathless.

"I will always save you, if I don't who else will?" he laughs joking with me and I kiss him.

"Now let's go home, want me to drop you out front" he asks softly.

"No I will go in with you" I say bravely. I need to get rid of this fear. I am safe with Jay and he will be with me in the garage.