Adore me- the fourth novel

Chapter 91- we always end up at hospital

Taylor's POV

"Are you fucking crazy" I say looking from Jay to Jane in shock.

"That's a no from me I'm calling the police" Joshua says grabbing for his phone. He looks at me assessing how I'm going the react. I nod to him and he dials for the cops.

"I didn't mean it" I hear Jane squeak and I block her out before I hit her.

I grab my phone and dial for an ambulance, right away. Jay has fallen, I couldn't keep him upright. So Ross and Matty are busy hauling him to the sofa.

"Jay" I say kneeling in front of him.

"Can you hear me" I ask softly stroking his face waiting for the operator to pick up my call.

"There's a piece of glass" I say completely beside myself to Ross.

I cry looking at the side of Jays head where the bottle broke on him. And the blood and cuts, the glass protruding just above his ear. It's not deep but it's still in his head and I'm freaking out.

"Hi, I need an ambulance. My fiancée, he's been hit on the head and he's blacked out" I say in a heightened voice.

"Glass. Yes. Cuts on his head. What do I do" I say.

"Jay man wake up" I hear Matty saying gently trying to stir him.

I nod and shake my head almost uncomprehending and repeating the words yes and I understand to the call operator. They inform me that an ambulance will be there in two minutes. They keep me on the line just in case.

I don't remember the rest of the call. Not even a little bit of it. The next thing I know is that there are paramedics and a stretcher and I'm literally crying my eyes out.

"I need to go with him" I say to Ross.

"I know Taylor" he says softly and his arms link around me for comfort.

"Only one person in the ambulance" the paramedic says.

"I'm his fiancée" I declare and I turn to Ross just before I hop in.

I kiss him on the cheek and he hugs me.

"Right behind you" he whispers in my ear.

I jump in the ambulance and take a seat next to Jays stretcher. I buckle up and we are moving, lights and sirens on.

"Jay" I whisper and I rest my hand on his heart. Feeling it beating.

"I love you so much, this is my fault I'm so sorry" I say.

"If I hadn't incited her" I say frustrated.

Within minutes racing through town the doors open on the back of the ambulance and light streams through from the street lamps outside of the hospital. Jay and the stretcher are rushed through ER. I find myself running to catch up with them.

Jay is seen straight away, there's lots and lots of doctors. A nurse sits me down in a waiting room, telling me that it will be okay and that I must wait.

I do as I'm told. I wait, grabbing at my phone and texting Ross. I look at the sign on the wall, it reads Westcroft wing. So I message him the name and wait for him to turn up. I put my phone in my small clutch bag and rest my head in my hands.

Luckily we're at a private hospital, Jay has a hefty health insurance cover for both of us. So in this hospital I'm sitting alone, not in a busy waiting room. I sob heavily into my hands.

"Taylor" I hear Ross say softly. I look up and Matty and Ross are in the doorway. Rach follows in behind them pushing past them to give me the biggest hug.

"It will be okay" she shh's me.

"Rachel it's my fault" I say crying.

"No. It's Jane's. She's with the police now" Rachel says cupping my face and wiping my tears.

"What if" I say trying to think about how this might end.

"No" she says.

Ross comes over to my other side and sits me back down in the chair. He sits next to me, arms going around me pulling me into rest on him.

He shh's me and in my turmoil he calms me down. He doesn't say a thing he's just there. There for me, always in my time of need.

"Ms Gilbert Scott" I hear a doctor say. He's tall with short dark hair.

"That's me" I say almost jumping out of my chair.

"We've treated the wounds, luckily for Jay they were superficial. We've taken x-rays as we need to assess the impact and look for any fractures. He's stable and you can go in" he says to the point.

"Thank you" I say and he nods and then leaves the waiting room.

I stand straight away walking toward the room in my red stilettos. I rush straight to Jays side and he's asleep. Unsure if he's woken up at all I stroke his face.

It seems like we're always spending time in hospital rooms for one reason or another. Yet again, it's my fault. If I'd have just ignored her she wouldn't have felt compelled to hit out.

I stroke Jays hair back and kiss him, whispering to him that I love him. And that I always will. I want to hold him in my arms but I can't.

"It will be okay" I hear Rachel whisper. I turn to her and see tears tracking down her cheeks.

"Let's get you some stuff" she says.

"Food and comfy clothes, Matty can get us a cab to yours" she suggests and he nods.

I hand over my keys and the gate pass. And then sit down waiting for them to leave. They promise they'll be quick, I glance at the clock and it's already 4am.

I take off my heels and lay back on my hospital chair holding onto my so far invisible bump. I cry a little and Ross takes up the chair next to me. He holds my hand quietly.

"How far along are you now" he asks softly.

"I think nearly 10 weeks" I say allowing him to distract me.

"You'll be showing soon" he says softly.

"You are going to be a wonderful mother" he smiles.

"I think it's going to be a boy, Jay isn't so sure" I say softly.

"Hmmm they say that mums instinct is always right" he chuckles.

"This is my fault again Ross" I say after a pause. If I had just ignored her none of this would have happened.

"Look Taylor, she's clearly a very unhinged person. How could you have known the outcome of this. You couldn't. So don't beat yourself up" he says.

He smiles down at me and I sigh. I'm the problem.

"You would say that" I say softly.

"What's that supposed to mean" he laughs.

"You never see my wrongs" I reply.

"Because you're perfect" he mutters.

I let that conversation die, and before I know it I'm falling asleep curled up on the hospital chair.