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Phone call - AMR & SS

"I'm only one phone call away." Those six words echoed around the blondes head as thoughts raced her mind. The house was empty. She had the day off while Vivian was at work, and Jamie was at nursery.

She took a deep breath before pressing the green button. Her hands began to shake as she brought the phone to her ear. "Hello, Shibs. Well, isn't this a surprise." the raspy voice answered, making Siobhan freeze. "M-mia... i umm i yeah, I've been thinking, and i... i need to talk to you." The blonde chocked out before kicking herself. "Okay, sorry Siobhan whats going on?" Mia answered as she realised that this was a serious conversation.

Siobhan sat herself on the edge of the bed and took a deep breath. "How did you... well, how did you learn to let Charlotte love you? I know it sounds stupid, but how? I can't with Viv or Jamie. I try my best, but i just can't let my guard down. I do love them, but i can't let myself be loved. His words echo my head, and i can feel his hands on me." Siobhan spilt out nervously.

Mia listened closely. "Shibs, i know this is what everyone tells you, but it takes time. The number of times i would be snuggled up with Char and then have to move away because all i could think was him. Charlotte has learnt to read the signs when im slipping into a flashback and will help distract me before it starts. She will ask me about dinner or to help her plan her work outfit. Shibs letting go is the hardest thing you will ever do. God, I've been free for a while, and i still can't stay around much longer than a week. You can do it. You need to talk to viv, or if not, i can talk to her before she picks up Jamie just to explain that you are struggling and give her ways on how to help you." Mia offered. She was trying so hard not to be her normal cheeky self, but she could tell that it wasn't the time for her jokes.

Siobhan thought for a moment and sighed. "I will talk to her later on and let her know how I'm feeling, but thank you, Mia. I'm sorry I bothered you. I really am." The blonde told her as she looked at the floor. "Shibs, it's okay. You didn't bother me now, Stop apologising before I have to start calling you Shibby again." Mia teased, earning a small chuckle from the blonde hair woman. "Thank you, Mia, but I need to go. Viv is home," Siobhan said quickly as she heard the door downstairs unlock. "Just talk to her, or i will." Mia joked before she ended the call.

*

Siobhan met Vivian at the bottom of the stairs. "Viv, can i have a hug, please?" Siobhan mumbled nervously as she watched Viv take off her shoes. "Of course, Bonbon," she told her as she moved closer. Vivian wrapped her arms around Siobhan gently. "I've got you." The dark-haired woman whispered softly. She had learnt that when Siobhan asked to be comforted, something was on her mind.

"Do you want to stay here or go and sit down?" Vivian asked quietly. She gave Siobhan options to pick from so as not to overwhelm her with possible answers. "Sit down, please." She whispered as Vivian led her into the living room. Vivian sat on the couch and carefully pulled Siobhan onto her lap.

"I spoke to mia." Siobhan mumbled nervously as Vivian listened, anger filled her body. "What has she done now?" Vivian asked as she was ready to defend her partner. "Viv, no, she helped me." Siobhan whispered as she stood up.

The blonde paced back and forth across the room as she explained the whole conversation to Vivian. She was patient and let Siobhan finish what she had to say before standing up and catching her in her arms. "Bonbon, that's a lot to answer to, but firstly, please stop pacing. You are making me dizzy." Viv joked, earning a slight chuckle from Siobhan.

"You are allowed to push us away whenever you feel you need your space. All i ask is that you dont just walk away from Jamie. Just lie and say you are getting a drink or you need the bathroom, please." Viv practically begged Siobhan and held on slightly tighter to the blonde. "Viv, i would never just leave him, i promise. No matter how im feeling, he will be my first priority." Siobhan whispered as she carefully wrapped her arms tightly around Vivian. "My ex would just walk away from him mid game or mid conversation. He was too young to fully understand why he just thought he was naughty." Vivian's voice broke as she started talking. Siobhan gently swayed them both. "Hes okay, he's safe, and he knows how much he is loved." Siobhan reasured her softly "Yeah because you tell him that you love him every 30 seconds." Viv teased to lighten the mood. Siobhan kissed Vivian's cheek gently. "I love you to now stop being jealous of a 4 year old."

The couple sat on the couch and shared small details of their past before talking about how they could both help each other. After a while, they fell into comfortable silence as they both found comfort in each others embrace. "Dont let me go," Siobhan mumbled as Vivian kissed the top of her head. "Never," she whispered softly.