TNN ONESHOTS

Meeting room - SS & VC & AMR

"For the tenth time today, what is wrong? You haven't been yourself all morning, and now you dont want me to take you to work like i do every day. What is going on?" Viv asked as she looked at the blonde haired woman. Siobhan shook her head as she looked at Vivian. "Stop! I am fine now, drop it... please."

Viv sighed and turned around to pick up Siobhan coffee that she had made, but as she turned around, she was gone. Before she could say anything, she heard the front door slam shut. Siobhan had to get out. She loved Viv, of course she did, but everything was eating her up, and old habits die hard. She didn't know how to open up, so to save everyone from herself, she had to get away. Tears freely fell down her cheeks as she made her way to the nursery.

Once she parked up, she sat in her car and pulled herself together, taking some deep breaths. "It's okay, im okay, we are all okay." She whispered to herself,

"She was crying on my shoulder, and all I could do was hold her. I've never seen her fall apart like that before. We all know how Roger is when it comes down to emotions, so whatever all this about is really breaking her." Mia told Viv as she watched the panic in Vivian eyes. "Hang on, it's okay. I took her to sit in the meeting room so she could calm down if you wanted to go and find her. Deep down, i think she could really do with a friendly face." Mia told her calmly.

Viv made her way quickly to the meeting  room, knocking on the door before slowly pushing it open. "Bonbon." Viv spoke calmly as she looked at the shell of the woman she loved, curled up in a ball on the couch that was in the meeting room. "Hey Bons, it's me, Viv okay, only me." She whispered as she carefully made her way over to where Siobhan was cowarding in the corner.

"Im sorry, please im so sorry. Please viv im sorry." She told her quickly as she sat up. There was something that Vivian hadn't seen in a while, fear. "Okay, Bons, it's okay. Please know that you are okay, and I'm not angry or upset with you. Mia told me you were upset and said that you might need a friendly face." Vivian spoke calmly as she sat herself on the floor in front of Siobhans feet. "Im here when you are ready."

Siobhan took a deep breath. "I dropped the shampoo bottle in the shower, and you heard it. I scared you because you checked on me. I shouldn't be dropping things. It's not what women do. I need to be seen and not heard." She sobbed as her whole body began to shake with fear and memories. "I thought you were angry at me for dropping it, and i was scared you might.... well, umm.... hurt me." She chocked out the last bit. Vivian listened before moving and wrapping her arms tightly around the blonde. "Okay bonbon. It's okay. I need you to know that i would never, ever hurt you. Never. Do you understand that no matter what happens, i would never hurt you." Vivian told her with a slight serious tone.

Siobhan nodded as she clung to Vivian. "I want to go home. Please," she asked quietly with tears in her eyes. "I dont want to be here or alone." She mumbled nervously. "Okay, bons. I will grab your stuff from the office and tell Mia that we are going, and then we can leave," Vivian said calmly as she handed Siobhan her keys. "Go wait in the car. Im on my way." She whispered as she kissed her cheek gently.

*

Once they arrived home, Vivian was quick to wrap her arms around Siobhan and hold her, keeping her close to her chest. Siobhan snuggled her head closer to Vivian, listening to her heartbeat.

"I didn't mean to walk out earlier, i just didn't want you to see me break, but it's too late for that," she joked slightly as she hung onto vivs shirt tightly. Viv traced circles on the blondes back to calm her down. "Hey, you are okay. I promise you are okay. If anything, it's Jamie that missed his Bonnie this morning. He's gone to nursery without his hair brushed because apparently you do it nicer than I do." Viv giggled as she told Siobhan. "Im sorry viv i really am," Siobhan mumbled nervously. "You are allowed to drop things, make a mess, make some noise, make a mistake, its human you are allowed." Siobhan sighed. "I mean, it's just old habits, i guess. I just can't help how he has shaped me to be what he saw as a perfect woman, but I guess -" She whispered, but Vivian kissed her mid sentence.

Their lips lingered for a while till Vivian pulled back. "I had to stop you rambling somehow, and i thought that was the best way." She giggled as she noticed Siobhan blushing. "There is the woman i know and love." She teased as the blonde hid her face once again.

"Viv, i love you. Thank you for saving me. I love you so so much, and thank you for trusting me with Jamie. I know I've never come across as the type of woman to like spending time with children, but honestly, that little bundle of energy heals parts of me i didn't know were broken." Siobhan spoke honestly as they stayed in each others embrace.