Taming of a Starr - Book 1 (FIN)

Tame #54

Starr

I went straight to the rooftop after Kihan and I talked. I screamed my heart out. Frustrations are eating me right now. Napakaraming problema. Si Lucio, si Fia, si Kihan, si Jared. Ganun ba kahirap maging masaya? Bakit pag sa ibang tao parang andali dali lang?

"Starr?" hindi ko inaasahan na may kasama pala ko sa rooftop at yun pa yung taong ayokong makita. Walang emosyon kong binalik ang tingin sa baba ng rooftop. He stood beside me. "Okay ka lang ba?"

"Do I look like I am?"

"Ah, s-sorry"

"Sorry na naman? Pesteng sorry yan bat ba naimbento pa?"

"Starr, I k-know your there. I know you saw everything that night, sa Audi. I'm sorry. I mean it. I'm sorry" hind ko naitago ang pagkagulat. "I saw the script you dropped. Siguro ng tumakbo ka bigla, nalaglag mo"

"Anong gusto mong gawin ko ngayon?"

"I'm sorry"

"Damn! Ano bang sinosorry sorry mo?? That you kissed? Wag kang mag-alala hindi naman namin sinadyang makita eh. Nauna kami dun but you two barged in. Don't worry my lips are sealed. Walang makakaalam na while she's still engaged, she kissed you. That she want you back. Oh hindi na nga pala sya engaged diba? Good for you. You can have her now again. Congrats. Yun naman ang gusto mo all along diba? At least you no longer need my help to get her back" pain registered in his eyes that I ignored.

"Is that the real reason why you suddenly changed and went back to being heartless?"

"Binabalik ko lang ang dating Starr na una mong nakilala. Dahil hindi ko pala kailangang magbago para sayo. It was so wrong for me to believe that it's possible for me to be happy but I told you a couple of times that it can never be an option for me"

"I don't believe you. I know I hurt you because you still have feelings for me but believe me Starr, I hate myself right now for hurting you like this. I'm so sorry, Starr"

"How times do you have to apologize?!" napapikit ako out of frustration. "My God! Do I really look pathetic in your eyes just because I still love you?? Ano pa bang gusto mong marinig? That I'll say okay apology accepted let's forget everything and start a new one? Tang*ina naman Jared tao lang din ako napapagod din!"

"Starr..."

"I know I promised to be your star in your darkest nights. But back then hindi ko naisip na pano naman ako? Who's going to protect my heart? Ang sakit sakit na kasi. I can see you but you're still too far from me. That no matter what I do, I can never have you. I realized na tama na. Wala ng mangungulit sayo, wala ng crazy Starr na susunod sunod sayo. Kasi in the course of loving you I forgot that one simple rule. I should love myself first before I can give my whole heart to someone else, to someone like you"

Wala sa plano ko ang umiyak sa harap nya kaya hindi ko na hinintay ang sasabihin nya at naglakad papunta sa pinto mg rooftop but before I even hold the knob, I was pulled by him and the next thing I knew is that he's kissing me.

It's not my first kiss and definitely not our first. I suddenly remembered how I forcely kissed him the first time we met to silence his annoying mouth. I admit how I dreamed of kissing him one day ever since I've fallen for him.