Forever & Always [ J.G | C.D ]

24- Carly

Walking into the dark room, the TV on the farthest wall was blaring. Nash and Cam sitting on opposite couches watching one of our favorites; Astro boy. Jack brushed past me walking straight too his room slamming the door. I guess he is a little pissed. The awkward events still playing in my head.

"Be mine?" Jack mumbled softly pulling away his lips.

I froze looking at him horrified. Those two words bringing all of my fears alive, burning deep into my mind. How do you reject a boy after he just took you on your literal dream date. It wasn't that I didn't like him, just thinks were moving too fast. I had only met him 3 days ago. And I don't know that isn't long enough to know someone enough to date them.

"Jack. I can't I'm not ready," I sighed, biting the inside of my cheek.

"Oh oka-- Yah no problem Carly. I understand," he stuttered out lowly.

"Thank you. Soon but not yet," I said giving him a reassuring smile

"Okay, we should get back," Jacks voice was wearily.

Cameron was adorable, his face barely poking out of the beige comforter wrapped around his entire body. I starred at him for awhile, watching his jaw clench on the tense parts of the movie. The TV illuminating his face enough to show his most amazing features, the way his lips were plump and totally kissable. And how his face was chiselled by a god himself.

"Take a picture it would last long," Cameron hissed, "Oh wait just go find one of the million online."

His eyes pierced into mine as I leaned over the kitchen island, starring up at him. The white couched lined perfectly across each other.

"If I wanted to take time out of my day to stare at a self centered ass maybe, I'll just take you up on that offer," I sarcastically spat out, giving him the finger.

Giving a small eye roll, I walked into my room ripping the cocoa colored comforter off the bed. Walking back into the living room, I wrapped the comforter around my body just like Cameron plopping down on the same couch as him.

"What are you doing?" He asked, rolling his eyes and looking at me with a very much unimpressed face.

"Watching the movie, duh," I snarked back, looking forwards at the TV.

His arms wrapped around me, pulling my body into his. My cheeks grew hot at his touch, my head resting on his chest and his arm slung lazily over my torso.

"Well at least sit where I can still see," He grumbled

I had so many things too say and yet I couldn't think of a single one, I focused on his chest breathing up and down really fast. My body was as stiff as a board as I laid on Cameron in complete shock. I slide my hand down wrapping it snugly around his chest so I felt more secure laying on his chest, our legs intertwined with the blankets. His chin pressing against the back of my head. His hot breath creeping down my neck, sending icy shivers down my spine. I smiled faintly, moving my attention back too the TV. Nash sat on the couch smirking, he was definitely enjoying all of this. He uncrossed his arms and rolled so he was laying on his side on the couch. I know I should be incredibly happy I was wrapped in the arms of my first love, but it was only a matter of time before it ended and we started fighting again.

"I wish you could understand," he whispered softly, kissing the top of my head.

Understand what? Because I happen to know I have been trying to understand everything since day one. All I have ever wanted too do was be yours, and too prove I am worth it for you. But you will never let me close enough. You do all these amazingly sweet things and boom you are back to being a complete jackass. The worst part was even though I was on that date with Jack tonight all I could think of was Cameron. Every time I seen a fish I liked, the first thing that came to my head was how Cameron would love it. You was dug so deep into my brain I didn't know if I would ever get over him. Especially not when he keeps this act up. Just yesterday he was telling me he didn't give a shit about me and that he only put up with me for Nash.

"Shh, let's just pretend this isn't real for awhile," I cooed softly.

A few tears slowly dripped down my face, soaking through his shirt. I would give anything for this to be real.