Forever & Always [ J.G | C.D ]

84- Carly

I sat on the edge of my bed, anxiety building in my chest. Causing my lungs to feel as if they were closing off my airway. I looked over my simple outfit again for the hundredth time hoping it would be okay. A pair of black skinny jeans clung to my body, and a baggy grey sweater covered my top half. Maybe then they won't notice that my baby bump was no more.

"Carly, they're here," my mom shouted through the house.

My heart raced as I turned the knob to my bedroom. This was really it. I made my way to the front porch slowly, taking deep breaths and telling myself I would be okay. I turned the corner and everything hit me harder than I expected. Everyone stood on the living room, smiling, chatting amongst each other. Nash was engulfed wrapped in my mom's arms. Sky wrapped around his leg, squealing excitedly. My eyes drifted around the room until my eyes landed on theirs. Time stood still as I watched them slowly taking in their every movement.

"Cupcake!" Shawn shouted, wrapping his arms around me tightly.

"I missed you so much," I squealed, embracing his hug.

Shawn pulled away, smiling widely. The only one who knew was him.

"Carly!" Nash gushed, wrapping his arms around me tightly.

"I missed you," I cooed, melting into his embrace.

Oh, how I've missed all of this; they were like my second family. I don't know what I would without them.

"Sup Cal," Johnson said, giving me a small wave.

"It's so nice to you see," I replied genuinely.

"Hey," Gilinsky and Cameron said in unison.

Weird. They both had wide smiles on their faces.

"Hey," I muttered, looking down at the floor awkwardly.

My quickened. How the hell was I going to do this. Cameron thought our break up hurt, how the hell was he supposed to deal with this.

"How are you?" Cameron asked gently.

"Tired, been working a lot," I replied quickly.

"Carly has been working back at the studio again," my mom said, changing the subject. "Isn't that amazingNash."

"That is amazing, Carly. I am so glad you are dancing again, but aren't you supposed to be taking it easy with the baby?" Nash spoke gently, a hint of concern in his tone.

I froze, swallowing the lump in my throat. Everyone looked at me waiting for a reply, but nothing would come out. I was always such a terrible liar.

"Come on, Nash don't put your sister on the spot like that," my mom scolded. "You should all get unpacked."

"Wait. Carly you need to tell them," Hayes blurted, stepping beside of me.

"Tell us what?" Gilinsky questioned.

I looked around the room anxiously.

"What is going on?" Nash questioned.

Who was Hayes to put this on me right now? It could have waited.

"Carly, are you okay?" Cameron questioned.

"Leave me alone!" I shouted, tears welled in my eyes.

Everyone looked around at each other, expressions of worry plastered all over their faces. I probably looked psycho, tears streamed down my face.

"Sissy," Skye cooed in front of me, "It's otay."

My heart melted into goo looking down at Sky. She was the world's more precious possession. And her actions gave me a boost of confidence. It wasn't how I wanted this to go. But I don't think anyone ever plans on telling some they love so dearly that their baby is in heaven.

"Cam, can we go talk privately," I muttered in defeat.

"Of course," Cam replied quickly.

"Hayes, you can tell everyone else considering you started this," I hissed in annoyance.

I walked outside the patio door and sat down on one of the stone steps hugging myself tightly, tucking my knees up to my chest. Cameron sat down beside me. He let out a shaky breath. Anxiety radiated off both of us.

"First. I need you to just me talk okay?" I asked, biting at my lip.

In this moment my heart broke, harder than it has ever broke in my life. My body trembled in fear.

"Okay," Cameron muttered. "You're scaring me, Carly."

"I need you to know that I love you, Cameron. I never ever wanted any of this to happen the way that it did," I admitted. "You have been someone I have always wanted to be with forever. Someone that I would have loved to raise a family with. And I fell in a dark place and instead of making the right choice. I shut myself away from everything and I ran like a coward. I should have been true to myself. I should have told that I loved you more, and I never should have shut either of you."
"Carly," Cameron sighed out.
"I'm so sorry, Cameron," I mumbled through tears. "I'm so sorry. Six weeks ago, I lost our baby."
The weight of Cameron's body crushed me as his body crashed into mine , his arms wrapped around me tightly as his entire body trembled. We sobbed together. Mourning the loss of our precious son.

"I'm so sorry," I chocked out.

"Oh Carly," Cameron sobbed. "It's not your fault."

The patio door slid open and a pair of heavy feet walked towards us. Another set of arms wrapped around Cameron and I. His familiar aroma swirled around us, Jack.

"I'm so sorry," Jack cried out.

After many moments of apologies and many many tears. We all sat side by side silently. Puffy eyed and rosy red cheeks. Jack and Cameron on either-side of me. We sat in silence, taking in everything.

"I missed you guys," I whispered softly.

I looked back and forth between both of them, holding out the palms of my hands. Cameron grabbed my hand and squeezed it as did Jack.

"I missed this," Cameron admitted. "I missed us being bestfreinds."

"Same," Jack muttered, sniffling gently.

Did this change things? Where things going to go back to normal now.