Forever & Always [ J.G | C.D ]

68- Carly

     My stomach erupted with a deep bubbly feeling, nausea. I rushed to the bathroom quickly releasing all of last nights dinner into the porcelain toilet. Strange. That was random. I walked back into the living room where the family all sat impatiently waiting for our father to return. Things were most definitely awkward having Jack and Cameron sitting in the same room together. They both looked up at me weirdly when I entered back in the crowded living room. A football game against the Giants and The Eagles played silently in the background on the large 60" flat screen TV.

"Are you okay?" Nash asked softly, as I sat down beside him.

"Just nerves. I'll be fine."

The room was silent besides a few little gurgles and giggles from Eloise. I looked up at Jack who was staring aimlessly at his cellphone, and then I looked over at Cameron. He was nervously staring at me. I cocked my head staring at him curiously. He looked away looking down at his phone, his fingers moved quickly typing on his phone. And within seconds the phone in my back-pocket was vibrating. I slowly scooted my butt up, wiggling the phone out of my back pocket, and unlocking it.

'Have you missed your period?' -Cameron

I looked down at the text and chuckled to myself. How could I be pregnant if I have never had- oh for fuck sake? I really fucking hope I am not fucking pregnant. I typed back to him furiously.

'Oh. You would just love that, wouldn't you? Didn't we use a condom?' - Carly

He looked down at his phone quickly and looked back up at me slowly with a sly smirk on his face. That fucking cunt. I guess I should have been more concerned at the time as well. Oh boy, this was just the fucking cherry on the cupcake today.

'Would you be able to sneak away and get a test?" -Carly

'Yes. I'll make an excuse.'

A few moments went by and Cameron was on his way out the door with probably the worst excuse ever. But whatever at least without him here things would be as hard. What the fuck was I going to do. This was one way to make this relationship to go out with a big fucking bang. I have no one else but myself to blame. And maybe Karma just a little bit-- what a selfish fucking bitch she is. Could I not end things with Jack saying I was pregnant with someone else's kid. In all retro spec not having Cameron around this week made things so much harder. Because instead of having Cameron around always seducing me. It was Jack this time. And I have a confession to make... I got pretty damn close to sleeping with Jack. He's my boyfriend but I felt way too freaking guilty to let things go that far.

Wills phone went off ending the awkward silence. The phone call was quickly ended and most consisted of Will replying with 'Okay' -- he ended the call and looked around the room quickly.

"Mom, got admitted and he isn't going to be home for awhile so he would like Jeanne and I to stay with all of you," Will said quickly, placing his hand in Jeanne's.

"We don't need a freaking babysit. All of us but Sky are basically adults!" Hayes complained.

"I don't care it's what dad asked of me. I'll start making supper," Will sighed, standing up and walking to the kitchen.

"I'm gonna come with," I stated sternly, in hopes he wouldn't regret the idea.

He didn't seem to mind, I followed him into the kitchen and we both agree on just throwing a few frozen pizzas into the convection oven. My gaze up at my oldest brother-- I admired him for leaving the family when he did. He has a life and a family created for himself. He doesn't have to be apart of our fucked up lives. But he was also the only person I could trust.

"Mom and Dad are separating," I blurted out, "I'm also having intense boy problems. That I brought onto myself if you cared."

"Wait. What? Also what the hell Carly! Why do you also confide in me about everything?" Will groaned.

"Well because the only other person I trust would just tell me 'I told you so' and I don't want to hear that right now. Also because I was eavesdropping and dad cheated on her."

"Ouch. That definitely is probably another reason why this episode was so much worse," Will sighed brushing his dark hair back with his large hands.

"So please elaborate on that, please? And why did you all lie to me?" I growled through my teeth.

"Well I mean it wasn't all of you or directed only at all you. I was the only one old enough to remember what happened, and you and Nash were the only ones born. It's a big reason as to why we moved here. After grandpa passed away. Mom had a psychotic meltdown," he froze looking into the living room to see if anyone was listening in, "And that's when she was first diagnosed with Bipolar 2 disorder. It doesn't happen often but when things trigger it, she is out of her mind for days. Don't expect her home and time soon kiddo."

He kissed the top of my forehead pulling me into a tight hug, "Things are going to be okay."

I sighed leaning up against the kitchen island. I looked around at all the family photos; we all looked so perfect. Like Melanie Martinez said 'Everyone thinks that we're perfect. Please don't let them look through the curtains.' I miss being a child with no cares in the world but my young boy crushes that were never going to happen. And all the dumb little toys I wanted. I hated being grown up. I have learned that my entire life was lie built up with walls of lies to protect me from the truth.

'You have got to be kidding me. Why are there so many kinds? Do women really need to pee on that many different sticks. Which one should I get?' - Cameron