Keep Yourself Alive - Roger Taylor

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My hands tapped at Rogers back as I hugged him for the final time before he left to get in the plane. Elizabeth was fast asleep in her pushchair, whilst Winifred rocked it back and forth.

"Have an amazing time guys" I grinned, giving them each a kiss and a hug before they departed.

"You seem a lot happier than last time" Brian commenter with a smile.

"Well I've got someone to go home with now, not as lonely" I smiled, turning to look at Lizzie.

"Oh Rose! I forgot to give you this" Freddie chimed in, pulling a tape out of his bag.

"What is it?" I asked, taking it from him.

I scanned the label, which read "For Rose, from your best friend Freddie" I grinned at the message But was still confused.

"Keep yourself alive obviously, you said you wanted us to add it to the set? So we did" He raised his eyebrows proudly.

"Aw thank you so much Fred" I smiled, jumping back into his arms for another hug.

"Anything for you, plus we were stupid for missing that song from the original set it's a classic" He scoffed, spinning me around and putting me down.

I stuffed the tape into my bag and turned my attention back to the lads.

"Right, good luck, please go before I cry" I begged, feeling my throat feel choked up.

"Don't you dare" Roger warned, but my lips began quivering.

"I- can't help it" I sniffled.

"No! This is happy, this is happy Rose" Roger smiled, taking my hands in his.

"These are happy tears" I lied most unconvincingly, and I could tell by their expressions that they knew my tears were sad ones.

"Don't be sad. Think of this as a milestone, we only have two weeks left of the tour" Roger reassured, with a nod.

"I know, and I know that I can't blame this on the baby hormones now, but I get upset when you all leave" I said sadly and they all nodded in agreement.

"Wait she's not pregnant anymore? Why can't she come with us?" Freddie asked.

"Because I have the baby to look after now Freddie" I laughed, and we all shook our heads at him.

"Anyway you better go, they said last call about ten minutes ago so" I smiled, shoving them all away.

Roger stayed back and pulled me in for one last hug and a kiss before rushing over to his parents and Lizzie, saying farewell to them too.

"Bye Rog" I smiled, kissing him again sweetly.

"Bye Rose, love you darling" He grinned, before walking back off to the departure gate.

Wow this feels like deja vu.

I walked back over to Winifred and Michael who quickly said goodbye before leaving the airport. I knelt down in front of Lizzie's pram and tickled her tummy lightly, making her wiggle around in the seat happily.

"It's just me and you for a while" I smiled at her, leaning in to kiss her head lightly.

Eventually, we were both home and she was fast asleep in her cot whilst I sat downstairs with a glass of wine and the tape in my hand.

I pushed it into the TV and let the recording play.

"So you all know Roger over here?" Freddie grinned, calling out to the crowd who all cheered as Roger held up his drumsticks.

"Well his wife is at home right now expecting a little baby, so we're going to play this song for Rose and Roger Taylor" He smiled, and the audience all cheered even louder.

The sounds of keep yourself alive echoed around the stadium that they were playing in, making a few happy tears pour from my eyes.

It was so amazing to know that all of those people were singing that song for Roger an I. Furthermore, it made me even happier to see the smiling faces of the four band members as they played. They truly were an amazing team, yes they may fall out and fight but when they get to create something as amazing as this for thousands of people to enjoy it all makes up for it.

The recording came to an end and the screen froze on a shot of Roger as his smile lit up the stage.

Knowing that they were coming back in a few weeks made me so happy, as we could finally settle down for a while with Lizzie before they start work on another album.

I sauntered upstairs to check on our little girl, opening the door to her bedroom quietly. She was fast asleep with her arms above her head. I giggled almost silently as she twitched her nose in her slumber, something that I had noticed Roger doing on numerous occasions in the past. Just watching her made me realise how much she was like Roger already, she already looks like him and carries some of his mannerisms even though she is a few days old.

Being a mother is so weird. It feels like only months ago that I was following the band around like a lost puppy; watching their gigs and flirting with the drummer. Little did I know that the little flirtatious glances would turn into love and marriage and even a family. It may not have been the life me or my family expected but I can't think of a better outcome.

Although after all this time I can't help but feel like I've sailed through life without contributing anything. I mean, I'm 35 and Roger is 37 and I've only worked at a stupid dress sewing company and dropped out of university. However, Roger always told me not to worry about that so maybe I should let it go. I'm probably overthinking stuff, I mean Roger is usually here to shut me up and calm me down when I think too far into things.

God I can't wait until you come home Rog.