Sorry, I'm bad at this. (NSFW AND MATURE CONTENT WARNING) (Lapidot Human AU)

Chapter 67

"...can't do what?" I asked timidly. Lapis balled her fists for a moment, and inhaled sharply. "THIS!" she raised her voice, gesturing around her. "Our parents obviously hate the fact that we're together. It's gonna be fucking hell to try and set up a fake wedding just to keep them apart!" Lapis cried. I opened my mouth to reply, but nothing came out. "Imagine having to spend the rest of our parents' lives pretending to be married! What if it slips out that we aren't married?! Then what?!"

"Well...w-we'll deal with that when the time comes, Lapis..." I muttered, looking up at her. She stood in front of me with her hands placed on her hips firmly. "Peridot, you're not getting it. You don't get it. We can't just wing everything." she stated. "...what are you saying?" I asked, raising an eyebrow. I felt anxiety build up inside me, and the pace of my heartbeat picked up drastically. "I'm saying that if we can't legitimately get married...I think we need to break up." she finally answered, and my stomach lurched again.

"B...b-break up?" was all I could get out at the moment. I tried my hardest not to let any tears well up in my tired eyes. "Lapis...come on we can make this work. I know you're not ready for marriage but we could really pull this off if we do it right!" I insisted. "That's what we said about our plans on breaking our parents up! Look where that got us!" Lapis snapped, throwing her hands in the air. "It sounds like you just don't wanna put in the effort, Lapis!" I argued, furrowing my eyebrows.

"That's not what I'm saying, Peridot!" she said, and I noticed her blue eyes grow glossier. "That sounds exactly like what you're saying! You're finding excuses for all of this, when there's several ways we could go about it. Are you just trying to break up with me?" I ranted, and I felt the tears welling up in my eyes. They were inevitable, and I didn't bother to hold them back anymore. "Peridot, you know I love you." she sighed, pinching the bridge of her nose. "Then why can't you just do this for me?!" I asked in a cracky voice.

"It's too much! I don't know if I'm strong enough for that! I don't know how long I'd be able to keep this lie up! It'll turn into a web of lies!" the bluenette shouted. "Then you're being WEAK!" I snapped, gritting my teeth. Tears were now rolling down my cheeks uncontrollably, yet I didn't even feel sad. I felt frustrated...and defeated. Lazuli stared at me in awe, and her mouth slightly gaped open. Her expression looked hurt, and her eyebrows scrunched up. I began to regret what I said, and I pursed my lips in embarrassment.

There was a horrid silence in the room, and it was suffocating. It became harder to breathe, and my hands began trembling. "I think I need to go." Lapis finally whispered, most likely trying to hide the hurt in her voice. "Lapis..." I whispered back, staring at her sorrowfully. "I didn't mean it that way, Lapis...I..." my shaky voice trailed off for a short moment. "I just...don't want to lose you." I murmured barely above a whisper. "I have to leave." she stated in a firmer voice, turning around. We hadn't unpacked all of her stuff yet, so she simply began to get her bags together.

Pumpkin was hiding under the blankets in my bed, visibly anxious. "Lapis, wait-" "No it's okay. Choosing to stay here wasn't the best decision in the first place." Lapis cut me off, picking up her last bag. "Lapis, please wait." I said louder, walking up to her. I placed my hands on her arm, slightly squeezing it. Lapis refused to look at me, but I could see her lip subtly quivering. "Let go." she whispered, but I didn't comply. "Lapis. I'm serious. We'll figure this out. Just stay, and we could forget this happened. Forget what I said." I explained, holding onto her tighter.

"None of this is your fault. I just need to go." she murmured, turning her head further away from me. "Lapis, listen to me!" I cried as Lapis pulled away from my grip and walked toward the door. She opened it quickly and entered the hallway. I sped up into a small jog, and I stepped in front of her. She attempted to step around me, but I blocked her directions. "You can't go!" I tried to keep my voice firm. She then placed her hand on my shoulder, and shoved me out of the way. I was taken aback by this contact, and my hasty emotion temporarily took over.

I shoved her back much harder, and she whipped around to look at me. "You don't get to shove me, Lapis! Not after everything I've done and do for you!" I shouted in a raw and upset voice. Tears were rolling down her cheeks now, and she furrowed her eyebrows. "I never asked you to do this for me, Peridot!" she argued, shoving me back once again. I exhaled sharply and jerked forward, pushing her again. At this point, we were acting like two five-year olds in a little pushing quarrel. I slapped her arm, and then began flailing my arms. I attempted to attack her, but she simply held me back with her hand.

Her palm was pressed against my forehead, and I groaned and screeched as I thrashed. I soon began to run out of breath, and I slowed down. I sighed, and my arms went limp. I shut my eyes tightly, and more tears managed to escape. "Please don't go..." I squeaked pathetically. I felt Lapis remove her hand from my head, and I opened my eyes. I watched as she turned back around, heading back for the front door. "Lapis, wait! You can't go anywhere! I drove you here!" I shouted, running after her once again.

"I can call an uber." she replied flatly. "Where are you even gonna go?! You don't have an apartment! You can't go back to the college!" I demanded. "I could get a motel, Peridot. Goodbye." she said, and I scoffed. I felt incredibly hurt at how easily she just gave up on...us. She opened the front door, and swung it back shut as I stood there helplessly. More hot tears stained my cheeks, and I let out a shaky sigh. I stared at the door blankly, and I pursed my lips. I kicked the door roughly, then stomping on the floor angrily.

I trudged back to my room, my chest feeling incredibly heavy. She just gave up.