Sorry, I'm bad at this. (NSFW AND MATURE CONTENT WARNING) (Lapidot Human AU)

Chapter 75

Lapis' POV:

"Wow..." I muttered lowly in a raspy voice. I sat hunched over on my small couch in my apartment complex. My phone was held up to my ear, but my arm was already getting tired. I could barely keep my eyes open, due to the sleepless nights. "So...it really happened..." I added, staring straight ahead at my stained wall."Yeah...I didn't think it would last anyways." Jasper replied over the phone quietly.

"Do you think they'll ever get back together?"

"Probably not. I know how my mom is. She never looks back on things like that."

"My mother always takes that type of shit the hardest..."

"Well, what can ya do."

"You said it was just 'cause of business?"

"Well, that's the excuse my mom always uses for a breakup. It's what she used for dad too. Who knows the REAL reason it happened, honestly."

"Cold..."

"Yeahhh...but you do realize what this means, right?"

"..."

"Riiiiighhhht...?"

"Well...yeahhh...but I kinda doubt Peridot would ever wanna see me again. Much less talk to me."

"Well, it's worth a try, right?"

"Not really."

"C'mon, Lapis. Y'know you love her. You can't give up that easily."

"Mmmmm..."

"Lapis. Just give it one more try. I won't push you to anymore after this. But just try. One more time. For you guys. For your relationship."

"I guess I could try one more time...for our sake."

"There we go. I wish you good luck on that."

"Hey, I never said I'm for SURE going to."

"Well, think about it."

"..."

"I gotta go, but just lemme know how it goes. Alright?"

"'k."

"Alright, bye Lapis."

"Bye, Jas."

Call ended.

I stared down at my phone for about a whole minute, just contemplating on what my next move would be. Should I call her? I scrolled through my contacts looking for her name, and immediately halted as soon as I reached P. There was Pearl...then Peridot. I read her name over and over again, and her name was etched in my mind. Voices in my head kept repeating the beloved name, and I blinked a few times. I can't call her.

Calling her seemed like an extremely weak move. If I wanted to show her that I actually cared, I would have to physically go and see her. Go to her dorm. Go see her face-to-face. I sighed, and closed my eyes tightly. I pinched the bridge of my nose and took a few deep breaths. I finally stood up, and stretched my arms to the sky, groaning loudly. You can do this, Lapis. You can do this. Make things right.

I grabbed my keys, and headed out the door. I was gonna fix things, and get our relationship back on track. My sulking had to end NOW. I hurt Peridot, and I had to go apologize. She's one of the people you care for MOST. As I exited the apartment complex, I started walking down the empty sidewalk across from the entrance. I continued walking down this block, and sooner than I expected, the university building came into view.