Sorry, I'm bad at this. (NSFW AND MATURE CONTENT WARNING) (Lapidot Human AU)

Chapter 30

-The next day-

I was sitting throughout the whole sex-ed session without Lapis leaving my mind once. I wasn't even going to deny it anymore - I wanted her to take my virginity. I've never been so positive about something like this before, and it made me feel...strange. The thing that made me nervous, however, was the experience thing that Amethyst had mentioned yesterday. I have none. I've never done anything past making out, and the possibility that Lapis would laugh at me because of my inexperience terrified me. I wanted it so bad, but at the same time I was scared. Has she ever fucked a girl? She's fucked a boy before...maybe she won't have experience with girls...

Then again, I wouldn't even be surprised if half the school wanted to fuck Lapis, boy or girl. So she might have already had experience with a girl. I was so confused, and it flustered and stressed me out all at once. I walked to my dorm with my messenger bag slung over my shoulder, and I was staring at the floor the whole time. Luckily I hadn't run into anyone, but I did trip over my own feet once I halted at the door to the room. I pulled the key out of my back pocket, and unlocked the door, slowly opening it. I peeked in, and spotted Lapis laying down in her bed, staring at the ceiling with tired eyes.

However, as soon as she glanced down at me, her eyes grew more awake and she looked at me with a lazy smile. "Hey, Peri. How was class?" she asked in a tired and raspy voice. I felt my face burn, and I looked over at my own bed to avoid her gaze. I haven't told her that I'm taking that class. "It was alright..." I murmured, pushing up my glasses, which were sliding down my nose. I dropped my bag beside my bed, and sighed heavily. I sat down on the edge of my bed, kicking my shoes off, and sliding my green sweatshirt off. "What were you up to?" I asked, throwing the sweatshirt to the floor.

"I had just gotten back from class like 20 minutes ago, and I decided to take a nap...but I couldn't fall asleep." she explained, resting her hands behind her head. "Say, uh Lapis?" I suddenly squeaked. She glanced over at me with tired eyes, and hummed in response. "I'm taking a certain class that I can't seem to gain a full understanding of without this one thing..." I said, twiddling my thumbs and staring down at my feet dangling over the bed. "What's the class?" Lapis asked, raising an eyebrow. "Uhm..." I continued to stare down at my feet, biting my lip. "Well if you need help, you gotta tell me what it is, Peridot." she said, lazily giggling. Help? HELP? You can help me by fUcKiNg mE! 

"It's kind of a sex ed class..." I muttered, feeling my cheeks burn. "Sex ed? Don't you take that during like middle and highschool?" Lapis asked, chuckling. "W-well yeah but...you can take it in college too. It counts as a credit, so why not, right?" I explained nervously. "Your parents made you take it, didn't they?" she asked in a more statement-tone than a questioning-tone. "Can't be prepared enough for sex..." I said in a joking voice, doing jazz hands. Lapis giggled, and shook her head. "So what kind of help are you needing?" she then asked, sitting up and looking at me with a...strange look. "U-uhm, I...I..." the words weren't coming out, and I felt my face start to burn again.

There was then a sudden knock on the door that startled me, and Lapis cocked her head to look over at it. "Ugh, who could that be?" I thought out loud, wobbly climbing out of my bed. I trudged over to the door, and opened it slowly. There stood none other than my sister, Squaridot Greene. I shot her a glare, and immediately began to swing the door closed on her face, but her foot stopped the door. "Ugh, what do you want?" I growled, furrowing my eyebrows. Squari then took her foot out of the door, and I hesitantly opened the door all the way.

She sighed heavily, and looked down at the floor, pinching the bridge of her nose. "Look. I'm..." she then muttered something under her breath, looking away. I raised an eyebrow in confusion, and put a hand on my hip. "Huh?" "I said I...gahgh..." I squinted my eyes. Is she okay?  "Look, I'm sorry okay?!" she finally blurted in an annoyed tone. "S-sorry?" my expression immediately softened, and my grip on the door loosened. "Yes...I-I'm sorry. For...everything I guess?" Squari murmured, scratching the back of her neck.

"You? Sorry? My sister, Squaridot. Actually apologizing?" I asked, making an over exaggerated surprised face. She rolled her eyes, and groaned. "Yes! I can easily change my mind, ya know." she grumbled, glaring at me. "But, I know how much you like Lapis, and I kinda just...disregarded that. It was a fair game. And you won." she said, now staring at the floor like she wanted to attack it. I rolled my eyes, crossing my arms. "Apology not accepted." I said. She then looked up at me abruptly, looking angry, confused, and baffled at the same time. "Wh-what?! You know how hard that was? To say sorry? To a dork like you?!" she asked in a cracky voice. I couldn't help but chuckle, shaking my head.

"Squari...I'm kidding. I...forgive you." I guess. Ugh. She then let out a relieved sigh, and closed her eyes. "Th-thanks, Peri. Now, on an unrelated note, do you know why Jasper's got a stick up his ass?" Squari then asked, and that caught my attention. "Wait what?" I squeaked. "Well, Jasper called me growling and yelling about something, but I couldn't really understand him. He said he had just woken up, and he sounded real angry." my sister explained. Oh shit. HE WOKE UP. AND HE REMEMBERS. "O-oh, that's...weird. I dunno, I haven't talked to him in a while..." I replied shakily, looking to the side. "Hm. He's probably on steroids again." Squari groaned, rolling her eyes.

"Hehe, yeah maybe..." I said, feeling weak on my feet. "Well, anyways, I just came by to s-say that...b-but you're still a loser!" she stuttered, and I even spotted a humiliated blush on her cheeks. "Alright, get outta here, 'cool kid'." I said, smiling smugly. She huffed, turning around and shoving her hands in her pockets. "Yeah, yeah whatever nerd..." she mumbled, walking away down the hall. I giggled, then closed the door. I felt a huge burst of confidence as I leaned my back against the door, thinking about bitch-ass Squari. I then turned my attention back to Lapis, who was looking at me.

"What did she have to say?" she asked. "Nothin' too important...however Jasper is now awake and angry." I muttered, looking down. "Sh-she what?!" she asked anxiously, now sitting up all the way. "Hey hey hey, let's not worry too much about it right now, Lapis. I don't like it when you're stressed out like this..." I explained, trying to calm her down. "B-but I can't help it, Peridot! H-he could-" "Ah ah ah, we'll worry about it later, okay?" I told her, looking her in the eyes, and walking closer to her bed. Lapis then looked up at me with fearful eyes, and scrunched up her eyebrows. I then cupped her cheeks, and leaned forward, kissing her. She squeaked, but then kissed back shortly after. She wrapped her legs around my waist, and pulled me down onto her bed.