The Soulless Queen (COMPLETED)

Soulless Chapter 30: Losing the Battle

Soulless Chapter 30:
Losing the Battle
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When she step inside the Harilia, i know that things will be complicated but i just ignore it.

When i learned that she will become a student's of this school i ignore it.

When the queen visited Harilia for her, i ignore it.

When the king talk to her, i ignore it.

And when i found out that the Alice that Dylan keep on talking about is the same Alicia i know, i felt jealous but i tried to ignore too.

I ignore things about her as long as things around me won't change but when i see myself eating alone inside the cafeteria, that's when i know how a she could change everything.

"Uhm, lady elise. Gusto mo bang sumabay sa lamesa namin?"

I look at the petite vampire whose offering her hands to the table where her friends are sitting. Pity is what i recognized in her eyes the moment i stared at it.

"Leave me alone." I didn't raise my voice but i intend to send her the fear that i once planted in them.

She shiver as she apologize and obliged on my order.

I held my head before i stand on my feet leaving my food untouched and stormed out of the place.

I waited, i wait for them for at least 3 hours and yet no one bothered to come to join me.

I want to cry and scream but I held my tears and walk to the dormitories land. Nasa kalagitnaan pa lamang ako ngunit nakita ko na kaagad si Dylan, nakatayo sa harapan ng Erudite.

My heart breaks a little but i tried to ignore it too. Ngayon lang naman e, Eloisa ngayon lang. I reminded myself as i keep my feet walking.

Nang makarating ako sa silid ko ay mabilis kong nilibot ang mga mata ko, i even tried to smell my room ngunit walang tanda na pumasok si Dylan.

Stop being paranoid Eloisa, dadalawin ka rin niya mamaya. Kapatid lamang ang tingin niya kay Alicia. Paulit ulit ko iyon iniisip at pinilit ko rin ang sarili kong kumalma at ngumiti.

Hindi ako matiis ni Dylan, alam kong darating siya para dalawin rin ako. Hihingi siya ng tawad dahil hindi niya ako nagawang sabayan kumain.

I am sure that tomorrow will eat together, sigurado akong kasama niya si Ren bukas at siguradong naroon rin si Athalia o kaya ay si Mira.

But when tomorrow came i feel like a shit sitting on the same spot. Last night i keep myself awake as i waited for Dylan but he didn't came but i didn't close the window even today.

He will visit me that's for sure.

I tried and pretended to enjoy it. Pero alam ko sa sarili kong kumakain lamang ako dahil hinihintay ko parin sila kaya't ng maubos ko na ang mga kinuha ay ang siyang panlulumo ko na walang muling dumating.

I got on my feet held my head high and walk.

"Elise!" Lumingon ako at ang humahangos na Mira ang sumalubong sa akin. "Buti naman naabutan din kita. Na stock ako sa isang subject ko, i am so sorry."

I smile a little before a tear escape on my eyes. Mira look shocked but didn't utter a word, instead she hold my hand and drag me to her room in the Imperial.

Nang makapasok kami ay pinaupo niya kaagad ako at niyakap ng mahigpit. I felt so lost in her arms and i couldn't help but to cry like a little child.

"I'm sorry Elise, please stop crying sumasakit ag dibdib ko dahil sayo ei.  Ano bang problema? Anong masakit? Did the queen say something again? Come on bitch! Hindi ka iyakin, tumigil ka na please." I don't how long but when i found my courage to speak i didn't think twice to tell her everything.

Lahat ng sama ng loob ko, lahat ng hinanakit ko. Lahat-lahat ikinwento ko sa kaniya, even the connection Dylan and I have, i tell it. Wala akong iniwan dahil pakiramdam ko sinasakal ng mga iyon ang puso ko at kung hindi ko pa ito sasabihin sa kahit na sino ay baka mamatay na lamang akong bigla.

As I freed myself for Mira, i know that i shouldn't ignore Alicia anymore, sinisira na niya ako at hindi ko dapat hayaan pa iyon.

Nakatulog ako sa silid ni Mira ngunit ng magising ako sa gitna ng gabi ay mabilis akong bumalik sa silid ko upang malaman lamang na hindi talaga siya bumisita.

My window are still wide open for him and i keep it that way, thinking that maybe he'll spare some time to see and to bring me my drink.

Nakatulugan ko na ang pagtitig sa bintana at nang magising ako at makitang may dalawang blood bag sa lamesa ay tipid akong napangiti ngunit mabilis naglaho iyon ng maamoy na hindi kay Dylan ang mga iyon.

Pinilit ko ang mga paa kong lumakad palapit roon. May sulat na nasa gilid noon at kahit hindi ko basahin ay alam ko nang kay Mira galing ang mga ito.

Dinampot ko ito at pinilit ang sariling basahin ang mga salita.

'Drink this bitch, i put a special tablet on that liquid that made for the rogue to let them speak in a normal way. I don't know if this will help you're body to take this blood but i am hoping that it will.

Please bare in mind that you're not alone, I'm here bitch!'

I smile as i tried to drink it while my eyes are shedding the tears that i keep on hiding. I can hear my heart breaking as i stared at my window, hoping that he will appear.

But i should know better.

Tumayo ako at pinilit ang sariling isara ang bintana ko. Hindi ko alam na ang simpleng pagsasara ng bintana ay maaaring magbigay ng sobra sobrang sakit.

I get back on the blood bag and drink it. Matapos iyon ay inayos ko ang sarili ko bago lumabas.

The smile that they once saw on my lips finally gone at gaya noon ay iwas na naman sa akin ang lahat.

I don't mind it as i am planning my day to became normal. Wala na akong balak pumuntang cafeteria at makita pa sila ngunit marinig kong isinugod si Alicia sa infirmary ay nakaramdam kaagad ako ng kaba.

Not for that bitch but for the man i am longing to see. His just near but i feel that his too far from me.

I take a detour on the infirmary, only to see Dylan looking at Alicia tenderly. The way he looks at her, i know to myself that i lose a battle.

Hindi ko na malaman kung may nasabi ba akong masakit sa kanila, because from that moment, my heart shattered into pieces. And i don't know if i could fix it back.