The Soulless Queen (COMPLETED)

Soulless Chapter 19: Her Sweet Poison

Soulless Chapter 19:
Her Sweet Poison

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My days run like how it is supposed to. Study at day and stay in the dorm when the sun goes down.

Three days and i stock in the same routine. Athalia didn't bug me, mira see me but i never dared to talk to her. Hindi ako lumilihis ng daan sa loob ng tatlong araw na iyon.

Hindi pwede dahil tiyak na may magbabago.

I drop my books in the table at the center of my room. My food will be serve later, I'll eat but not enough to fill my hunger. Tiyak na maitatapon ko nanaman ang iba noon mamaya.

And as the days goes by, ay nakikita ko na ang resulta ng mga iyon. Sa tuwing haharap ako sa salamin pakiramdam ko ang laki ng parteng nagbabago sa akin. And i don't like the result.

Soon they will notice the same too.

I drop my body on the couch. I feel tired, despite the fact that i didn't do anything to make me feel it. Hindi dapat ako mapagod ng mabilis ngunit sa sitwasyon ko ay hindi na imposible ang bagay na iyon.

I heard the servants knock, and when i let them in, the sweet smell of torture intoxicate my whole room.

The hunger on my stomach is craving for food and the hunger on my pangs is craving for the blood. However, i know that this food will never satisfy it.

"Put it down and leave" i dismissed them as i see a glimpse of curiosity in their eyes.

They are the servants who always bring my meal and i know that they already notice the changes in my body.

They nod quietly before they leave my room.

I sighed and stare at the food.

The cravings i felt earlier is already gone. It is like i am looking at something that isn't my body want.

"Damn! Curse that wolf!"

The frustration and anger i felt will never subside. It won't!

'-magtiwala ka sa akin'

How i wish that it would be just easy.

Trust is one of the thing i don't have. I shouldn't trust anyone except for myself. Kaya imbes na makipag-usap pa sa kaniya ay tumakbo ako paalis.

I can't stand the proposal's he want. Kung papayag kasi ako sa kasunduang iyon ay tiyak na malulunod ako sa sobrang kahihiyan.

Anong sasabihin nang lahat oras na may makaalam ng bagay na iyon? Masisira ang pangalan ko at tiyak na kamatayan ang parusang ipapataw sa akin.

Kamatayan

I smile bitterly as i stared at the food. Hindi ko pa ba pinapatay ang sarili ko sa panahong ito? Maybe yes, but i guess it is more appropriate than to die in front of my people with a curse label above my name.

I tried myself to swallow the food. I tried not to vomit or not to even throw it away, but i am failing. At the third try i can feel how my frustration rise.

I can't do it.

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Students gather in front of us. They seemed too excited about this day as Tiyo Valdemor remind us for this special day.

It's the hunting day. At ito lang ang araw na pwede kaming uminom ng dugo mula sa buhay na hayop.

This is a test. Everyone can use all there strength and knowledge to hunt for food. May ilan sa kanila ang nagpupustahan at nagpapayabangan.