The Soulless Queen (COMPLETED)

Soulless Chapter 1: The Queen's Promise

Soulless Chapter 1:
The Queen's Promise
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"You should face everyone, huwag na huwag kang yuyuko sa kahit na sino. You're the only heiress of this land huwag kang magpapatalo kay Alicia. Ikaw ang anak ng hari, ikaw at ikaw lang!"

"Yes mama"

She smile but she never smile genuinely.

Ngumingiti lang siya kapag alam niyang kailangan niyang ipakita iyon sa akin. Kapag kailangan kong tapatan ang kapatid ko. In short ngumingiti lang siya para utuin ako. Para pagbutihan ko.

My mother never smile at me like a mother should do. She's just smiling, because she is the queen.

Today will be my 8th birthday celebration. Walang bago at walang espesyal. This is actually a late celebration dahil kahapon pa ang totoong birthday ko. But the king, my father spend his night with my unwanted sister-- alicia and her mother-- allissa.

They both steal my chance to be with my father's care. We should be spending this day on my lolo's house. Wala akong hilig sa mga engrandeng pagsasalo. Wala akong hilig sa maraming regalo. What i only want is a quality time with my family. Yun lamang ang gusto ko, ang hiling ko. Pero ayaw ng tadhana dahil nagkasakit kagabi ang kapatid ko at si papa, ang mabuti niyang ama, ay nanatili sa tabi niya.

While me? suffering from my mother's wrath. She blame me for doing nothing. She blame for being nothing.

I have the title that Alicia didn't have. Pero masaya ba ako? Yes I can roam freely on our land that she can't. I have my freedom while she's in cage. I am living in a castle while she? She's just in my father's manor. She's not even studying, don't have lot of friends, don't wear any elegant dresses. But why do I feel that she still have everything? Why do i feel that I want to be her? I want to be a daughter too, ayokong maging tagapag-mana lang.

Humarap ako sa bintana ng malaking kwarto ko and there I saw it again, the garden that my father wants to be his new gift for Alicia. Malayo pa iyon pero pinaghahandaan na niya. But what about me? I know that he didn't' want me as his daughter. Sino nga lang ba ang isang Eloisa Crossiford? Anak lang naman niya ako sa babaeng inihanda para pakasalan niya. He doesn't love my mother. Kaya hindi rin niya ako kayang mahalin pabalik. My role in this life is to stand in front of everyone to hide his precious daughter, his one and only heiress.

I am just nothing.

Pangalan ko lang ang may halaga but the owner itself doesn't have anything. Kaya pinipilit ko ang mga nasa paligid kong tawagin akong Elise ng sa gayun makalimutan ko pansamantala ang buhay ko.

My other name is my escape, sa tuwing tinatawag akong Elise pakiramdam ko ang gaan-gaan ng buhay ko. Walang titulo, walang obligasyon at walang kaagaw.

What I want to do now is to destroy that party. My own birthday celebration. I could clearly analyze the whole situation, hindi naman talaga ginawa ang gabing ito para sa akin.

The whole celebration was for them, for their business. Para lang ipakita ng reyna sa lahat na may anak siya at para lang maimbitahan ng hari ang mga matatandang konseho at ang ibang matataas na opisyal sa pyramid. This night is for them, not for me.

Hindi man lang nila naitanong kung ano ang gusto ko. They always decide on there own. They never ask my ipinion. Kahit sa kung ano ang mga paborito ko, kung anong gusto kong kulay ng damit at kung ano ang tema para sa kaarawan ko.

They just assume that I want it too.

Na hindi kailanman mangyayari.

I heard three knocks on my huge pink door. Oh! How I hate this color!? But damn it! I can't complain about it.

I never say anything at kusa na lamang bumukas ito. I am expecting my nanny, my guards or even my mother to scold me for taking too long inside my room, but none of them is my visitor.

"What are you doing here!?" I shouted at her and she almost jump on her feet. "I did not invite you here Alicia! Get out of my party! Now!"

"Pero si papa ang nag-imbita sa amin and I am here to give you this" nakatayo parin siya sa pinto at nakalahad sa kamay ang isang painting na alam kong siya mismo ang gumawa. "Happy birthday Eloisa, papa said magugustuhan mo raw ito"

No i don't! I wanted to shout it pero hindi ko na nagawa. All I want right now is to cry, hard and loud. My father invited her and he didn't ask any permission from me. It's my birthday pero gaya ng sinabi ko. Wala akong kontrol sa lahat. It was always there damn decision.

And that painting, how I wanted to break it in front of her eyes. I want her to feel this agony too, ng sa ganoon pareho na kami. Painting is my father's talent that Alicia got na wala sa akin. See? I am useless, kung hindi dahil sa pisikal kong itsura siguradong hindi nila ako mapagkakamalang anak ng pinuno. I don't have that talent.

"Hindi ko kailangan ng regalo mo. Umalis ka nalang sa kwarto ko. I hate you Alicia! I really hate you!" Hindi ko na pinigilan ang mga luha ko na may kasamang galit.

I hate her. Everything about her!

Everyone likes her, at ako? Ako ang ayaw nila. Lahat sila ayaw sa akin. Pero wala akong pakialam dahil pag dumating ang tamang panahon ay sisiguruhin kong luluhod silang lahat sa akin at sa panahon na iyon hindi ko hahayaang maging panakip muli para kay Alicia. I will make my own legacy, my own name, and my own title at hindi ako kailanman gagaya sa reyna. If I will be the queen of this land, I'll make sure that the man I will marry will only look at me, only me. Walang kahati!