PINK RIBBONS

69

"uhh is it me or you just don't sound as happy as i think you should be about this? " shay questioned flow as she had expected flow to be over the moon about having another child. seeing as how flow was always saying she wanted to have a big family.

"that is because i am not" flow told her dryly being honest.

"are you serious ?" shay questioned taken a back by flow's revelations.

"i am dead serious" flow told her getting up and tossing the piece of paper in the garbage that confirmed that she was indeed pregnant. "i am so disappointed with this . like you have no idea" flow told her rolling her eyes

"why ?" shay questioned

"because" flow answered scoffing "this just should have not happened. like i haven't even graduated yet and i am on my second fucking kid. it is just so ..UGH" flow grunted

"flow you graduate in like a month or two" shay pointed out

"yeah i do. and i was suppose to start working full time right after i graduate now with this kid on the way i don't know how that is going to be possible. like it is already difficult enough with arie, but to add another one it is just going to be chaos" flow sighed

"i don't think it is going to be that bad flow. i mean you could always hire a nanny. your making it seem like this kid is going to be a burden financially or something"

"i am not referring to the financial part at all shay. i am talking about this emotionally and how it affects life as i know it. it is hard with arie even though we have the means to take care of her. more goes into raising a child than money shay. you have to have time, patience and it is just not easy. furthermore, it is the fact that cameron now wants me to stay home since dr.benson told me to take it easy."

"what is wrong with that ?" shay asked

turning to shay flow gave her a serious look "i didn't go to school for nothing shay. i didn't work my ass off just to sit on my degree"

"i am not suggesting that you sit on your degree. i mean why not take a year off to raise the baby then go back to work you have the choice to do that."

"once again the money is not the POINT" flow hissed

"well honestly flow i don't see the big deal. like your pregnant okay. it isn't like your going to struggle with this one or nothing like that. so why complain ?" shay hunched her shoulders

"you know what just forget it" flow told her just wanting to drop the subject now, irritated with shay not seeing where she was coming from.

"why are you getting an attitude with me i am just saying. i am trying to make you see that it is not as bad as your trying to make it out to be."

"it is not as bad as how i am trying to make it out to be ? like shay put yourself in my position.if you were twenty one and on your fucking second kid how would you feel ? you don't have a degree yet. you haven't done all the things you wanted to do. your whole world revolves around kids. the man your with is probably going to have another baby with someone else. like would you not feel some type of way ?" flow asked her

"well when you say it like that" shay chimed

hissing her teeth flow ran her hand over her face then letting out a deep sigh as she just was not in a good place

"this was not planned" flow told angie as she took out some plastic cups from the bag. "apparently when your on antibiotics it cancels out your birth control" flow told her having found the reason why she and cameron were in the current situation.