Dear readers,
I AM SO FUDGING HAPPY!!!(*drewlz* I want fudgesicles...) I just realized that school doesn't start 'till the 11th... AND MONDAY IS THE 10TH!!! XD XD XD YAYZ!!! Also mum got me some Neilson chocolates and Mark bought some Dill Pickle chips PX
I was in a really paranoid mood this morning, but this really makes up for it...
Wanna know why I was in a paranoid mood? Too bad, I'm gonna tell ya anyway(haha!). I had a really bad dream, which I will tell you about after I go upstairs to get the soup my mum's callin' me up for.
SLUUUUUUUUURRRRRPPPPPP! I bet your jealous I have soup and you don't, aren't you? PX
By the way, as you would have no doubt figured out even if I didn't write this if you read what I'm about to write, I am a very paranoid person.
Anyway, like I was saying, I had a bad dream. Though I can't really remember how it started, I know that it didn't start off scary. I can vaguely remember that it was about two high school girls skippin' school to adventure or look for something or something along those lines. Anyway it got darker, and they were driving... somewhere, probably back to school(the driver was an Asian girl, the other, who for some reason was in the back even though it was only the two of them, was blond), and it was night now, and some transport driver was going right fast behind them and then the focus shifted to him, a big fat guy, and he was laughing. Not normal laughing, like crazy, open eyed laughing. And then he rammed into the back of their car and the Asian girl flew into the part beside the steering wheel and then slid down, and there was blood, and she was dead, but for some reason the car didn't go off course, and the blond climbed to the front and took the steering wheel, moving the other girl to the other seat, and she was concentrated on the road, but my view was from the back seat where the blond had been sitting and I was there even though I was just a spectator in the dream, just looking in, and I saw. The other girl sat up with a huge grin on her face, and her eyes had a crazed look in them, only now she was a guy with short black hair. And when the blond noticed she froze, and for some reason she put her hand on the windshield, but now she had a test paper in her hand, and on the paper she drew a face with a huge grin on it, and the guy who was the Asian girl said, in a really creepy voice, "now you're one of us!" and then she was, and then he turned and looked at me and grinned like one of those drama masks, which was weird, cause, as I said before, I wasn't even one of the characters in the dream, I was just watching it unfold, and then I woke up.
And it was scary because I wouldn't be afraid of the zombies in the games and movies, in fact I think I would probably thrive, but if they where like this, more like crazed murderers and clowns then zombies, delighting in others pain, I don't think much of anyone would survive.
And when I got up, no one was home. I would have usually gone on the computer and told you about this then, but the house was too quiet, and my brothers room is right across from his laptop, and I would have had my back to a door and I was too paranoid at that moment to allow that. When I'm paranoid, I don't allow myself to keep my feet on the ground right next to a bed or couch for fear of something coming out from under it(I do that all the time though) and I don't let my back face anywhere something could hide.
This is why I don't watch scary movies anymore, they make me paranoid(I do watch the Resident Evil movies, but not at night). I watched the first Ring movie, and TVs still make me nervous when I'm alone with them turned off, and I never let my back face one when I'm alone. I also only watched about 5 minutes of Darkness Falls and I'm better now, but for years and years I was afraid of the dark because of it. I also refuse to listen to scary stories now, because I heard stories about the Click Click Slide Lady and Bloody Mary(look them up if you don't know them) and I still am afraid of being outside in the dark too long and I always look all around me so if I see or hear her I can run as fast as I can and I still apologize to the mirror after I've made funny faces at it. I don't let my back face mirrors either.
And I know I'm really paranoid, but it's only really at home, at school It doesn't really bother me.
And, considering the main topic today, I think the song I'll put is Dancing Dead by Avenged Sevenfold and my picture will be another demotivational poster that made me lolz
Anyway, time to watch sum more PoT(Prince of Tennis lolz), I'll probably c ya laterz PX
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I'm getting off early today, at 8, 'cause I'm gonna watch a movie with mum, she rented a movie from the co-op, it's Valentines Day, I've already watched it before, but I like it, and It needs to be returned tomorrow, so I probably won't get a chance to watch it if I don't tonight. So yeah, buhbye c ya guys later!
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It's 12:55 and I am is SUCH a great mood right now! I just saw my first comment on this "book" from StorybookHeaven(love to hear from mah readers 'n peeps, rly appreciate it XD)!!! That, of course, made me reeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaallllllllllllllyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy happy(XD), and I was already in a good mood! I'd guessed at something about what was gonna happen in The Naming, and I was right! This happen's often, I'm really good at guessing what's going to happen in books, but it never fails to brighten my mood.
I felt so awesome after that I just had to say it out loud(but in whispers, I wasn't supposed to be awake- church tomorrow DX). I must have said "I am awesome!" at least thirty times! And then I realized that if people with low self-esteem, like I used to have(and still kinda do), said a complement to themselves over and over again many times, they would probably feel a lot better. 'Cause I know I felt great after saying it a gazillion times.
And like I've thought a million times before, if people who are depressed made funny faces at themselves in the mirror until they laughed as often as I do(a great way to cheer yourself up, or even just make a great day greater), maybe they wouldn't be quite so depressed? Of course, I'm only talking about the people who are depressed that aren't even TRYING to enjoy life, not the ones who have actually had real hardships. This isn't likely to heal any major pain, just brighten your day some, after all, I'm not a miracle worker. What do you guys think? Plausible? Or will the MythBusters bust this one too?(lolz)
Anyway, it's 1:15 and I would like to get to my Prince of Tennis and Ares, so buhbye for now! PX
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I think it's about time for me to go to bed now, after all, I have church tomorrow, which means I'm going to have to wake up in the morning. I don't feel like sleeping yet, though, so I think I'm gonna read some more. I know that means I'll me super tired tomorrow(I wouldn't be if I was going to school, but at church I almost fall asleep even when I get a good sleep the night before), but I don't really care; not like I'll be paying attention at all anyway.
So... nighty-night then PX
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