It Will End In A Kiss

If I Could Have A Little Of Your Time Please

If I could have a little of your time please to read this...it will mean the world to me. Its been weeks since I first reached out and ask for help for me and my family. We have been in a tight situation when it comes to our financial standing and we are doing our very best to keep ourselves above water and not be completely taken by it.

But then I remembered that I've never given you all any background about our situation. So  I will try to share some details here.

My father died ten years ago but before he died of multiple organ failure, he spent almost six months in the hospital and we accumulated quite a debt because of it. We used the only thing we have to get my father's body so we can mourn and bury him. We used our home as a collateral to get a loan on the bank and pay the hospital.

Fast forward to 2020, we were doing relatively fine since almost all of us has work (my parents had seven children, six of us has work. Four has their own family to take care of) and all were contributing to pay the bank loan and get back our home. But COVID happened and three of us lost our jobs (that includes me). Losing a job was a painful blow, I'm not gonna lie on that and I got depressed about it but we decided to huddle together to think of ways to continue paying our debt so our house won't be taken from us.

But we hit a snag last September and we realized we won't even make a payment on October...so I decided to ask for help here. It took me weeks to convince myself that I have to do this because I already feel ashamed that I became neglectful on updating my works. I never thought of monetizing or earning anything with my writing because this is something I enjoy doing even if no one pays me to do it. That I even have readers and followers here are mind boogling enough because I didn't even let my family know that I enjoy writing fanfictions about BL stuffs.

But I cannot escape the fact that we needed help and so I reached out. To everyone who answered back to me with kind words and who sent help...thank you so so much. It means the world to me and to my family. You made my Mama cried because she never thought there are people out there who cares about us losing our home. She thought we are in this battle alone. Just her, a 70 year old widow, and us, her children.

You helped us and I want to express my deepest, deepest gratitude. Thank you so much. Things did got better. We managed to accumulate the amount we needed with your help to pay the bank in October.

Once again, thank you so much.

The battle is not over yet, though (to be honest, we have another six months to pay, our father died on March 2011 and the loan is for ten years so April 2021 is the magic date for us). For us, we have to keep fighting because this house is something our parents worked hard to build so they can raise their seven children in a loving home.

With all of that being said, I continue to appeal for help. This is not mandatory and not a monthly thing I will do. I also hope this will be the last time I will reach out to my readers for help. There are some prospects coming our way that we will take but it'll take some time to bear fruits. My sisters and I are diligently looking for work, there are some bright spots on that score...but nothing is guaranteed yet.

And to be bluntly honest, I don't know exactly how I feel while sharing my personal life to all of you. No wait, I think I know exactly what I am feeling while writing all of these. I am uncomfortable.

But someone told me, to be able to solve a problem...to be able to get help...to be able to connect to others...to realize that we have shared experiences...we need to be willing to be uncomfortable to share our truths because we never know, someone might read or hear our truths and they will realize, they are not alone and maybe...just maybe...they'll be little less sad or scared.

For years, I write stories because I want to escape some of my reality. I wrote stories hoping to make someone laugh or touch their hearts or just to escape their problems for a moment. I wrote stories thinking, if I could make someone feel better with my words or make them smile, even for a moment...even if I don't know them, that'll be so cool. Imagine me, simple and ordinary me, could touch people's hearts with my stories of crazy characters. That I could make someone miles away from me, laugh and cry with my characters. That is so cool for me. I have never been a cool person.

If my stories touched you or made you laugh or cry or feel things...I hope you know your support of my works touched me as well. If I do that to you, my dear readers, could you please consider helping us...as I always says it, it'll mean the world to us.

If you want to send words to me, my private message is always open here. Ask me questions, I will try my best to answer them. Your kind words always touch my heart. If you want to help, no amount will be too small and we will welcome it wholeheartedly, my paypal account is paypal.me/neens1981 and my email account is heegin910@icloud.com.

Once again, I want to apologize to you, my dear readers, for doing this here. I started writing back in 2015, I never thought it will come to this, that I will reach out for help from all of you. I never ever thought. Maybe all of us never thought it will come to this.

To anyone having a hard time with life in 2020 as well, I'm sorry and its okay to feel frustrated, angry and sad about everything that is happening. I know our family's hardships is not unique or anything harder than what everyone is going through. I know there are people out there having a harder time than us. We don't have much...but we still have hope. And I hope and pray this will be over soon. Just a little bit more and it'll be over soon.

Much love to all of you, dear readers. I apologize for interrupting this story. And I thank you for giving your time reading my words and our family's story. Thank you.

Now...back to your regular readings. Enjoy and I hope that the rest of your day will be fine 😊

PS: Also, if you are an American, please vote. I have my preferred candidate but I won't tell you who to vote for. Just vote. Its your right and your voice has a right to be heard. Vote and be counted. Every vote counted the same and every vote could change not just the US but the world. So make a plan, put on a mask, and vote. Thank you.