It Will End In A Kiss

Deserve

(BLU)

It was supposed to be our sexy time but Robin is clearly distracted so I stopped raining kisses on his neck and sighed against his skin. "Okay, what's going on inside your head? You are not even wholly hard. You're just..." I waved downwards. "I'd say mildly interested? Yeah, I think I used the right term." I gave myself an imaginary pat for that genius.

But instead of being amused with me, Robin remained unsmiling while staring at me. "She won. She ruined every good mood I have," he said.

"You met AnneMarie," I don't need to be a genius to guess that one. There is only about one person in Robin's annoying people list. My bestfriend. "When and where? And what did you two talked about?"

"What do you think?" Robin gave me more intent looks.

I winced, "You two should stop talking about me. It might bring me accidents. I will one day go down a stair and because you two constantly think and talk about me, I will slip and fall. Hitting my ass first and it will be broken that doctors will recommend overhauling it and giving me a mechanical butt made of pure alloy,"

My nonsensical babbling had the desired effect on Robin. He grinned at me. "Mechanical butt eh?"

"Made in pure alloy," I reminded him.

"Argh!" He pressed is fingers on his eyes to visibly stop himself from laughing. He must think my brand of comedy is lame. Jerk!

I kissed his cheek. "Whatever she said, she said them with ulterior motive on her mind. To hurt you," I said solemnly in case that was not clear to my boyfriend.

Robin looked into my eyes, "She said you were hiding things from me about the conversation you had with her. She's not bothering me anymore yet I know she turned her venomous schemes on you and you are not telling me all,"

"True," I nodded, "But that's because this became less about you and her. It's not even about you and me. This became about her and I. This is between bestfriends now. I love you but I know you hate her and I don't to lose her but I would love not to lose you too," I said as emotions formed as a lump on my throat.

"Why can't you just let her go. She is toxic," Robin said.

That anger me. I sat up and snatched the shirt I took off for him while ago. "If you will spend the night calling her names and asking me to let her go, we should just end this now,"

"Blu!" Robin caught my arm before I can climb off his bed. "I'm sorry..."

I sighed, "Did you even listen to what I said? I don't want to lose her. I don't want to lose you. She's telling me to leave you, you are telling me to leave her...you are both terrible people. Why do you keep telling someone who just lost his parents to lose another person again?!" Even I was surprised at how emotional that one came out.

My emotions are getting wired again. This is why I hate what they are doing to me. I already lost my parents, why do I have to lose another person I love just to keep another one? "Can't I just have you both? Is it really too selfish of me to do that?" I asked Robin. "It's not like I have many people by my side. I can count you all in just one hand. You, AnneMarie, Mr.Akage, Mr.Gilbert, my Tita Josie...see?! These are all I have!" I showed Robin my five fingers.

"I'm sorry, Blu." Robin hugged me as I quietly sob in his arms. "I'm sorry,"

I hugged him back, taking the comfort he is giving me. "I'm sorry too. You don't deserve that outburst,"

"Nah," Robin let me go so he can wipe the tear tracks on my cheeks. "You have been bottling it up inside you, right? AnneMarie and I have been bickering and all you did was listen to us rage against each other. Sorry, I call her names without even considering how much you love the person I am badmouthing."