It Will End In A Kiss

Vent

(BLU)

"Why didn't you tell me?" AnneMarie looked hurt while asking that question.

We are outside the Admin Building. Robin had the brain to run away when he saw AnneMarie coming. He left my side so quickly he will beat the Flash if they will compete in that moment.

I want to run too. But I was reminded that AnneMarie is my friend, my only real friend here in St.Anne for sure, and I should probably explain things to her.

"What should I tell? That I was honorarily adopted to Robin's family and I am living with him. How can I explain that to you?" I feel tired already and it's only the middle of the day. Classes is on break and we only have fifteen more minutes to argue about this.

"I don't know. But you should have said something or maybe a little warning. Now, I had to face people asking me about you and Robin and I don't know what to say..." AnneMarie replied heatedly.

"You should have said that nothing is going on between me and Robin. We only live together..." I stopped. AnneMarie snorted delicately, "That is more than what you can say about us. We are not living together..."

"But we have been bestfriend since third grade. That's seven long year, AnneMarie." I said.

"Exactly!" AnneMarie exclaimed. "Seven long years of friendship and you lied to me..."

"I didn't lie to you..."

"Hid a lot of things then," AnneMarie amended her words. "You hid things and you omitted a lot of stuffs about your new situation with your guardian. Why? Because you don't trust me...?"

"Because I am scared that you will use me and my new situation to get closer to your "star" and "dream"..." I replied back quickly to what she said.

Both AnneMarie and I froze after my outburst. I groaned inwardly when I finally realized what I said to her were unfair and hurtful.

"AnneMarie," I tried reaching for her hand but she evaded my touch.

"You are right." She said bitterly. "I might have done just that. If I learned last week that you are living with Robin, I would have pestered you nonstop to let me visit your new home to see him. You are right..."

"No. That's not..." I feel helpless now. "I didn't mean what I said. I don't believe you will do that..."

"No," AnneMarie shook her head. Her single ponytail waving with it. "You were right. I will totally use you to get closer to Robin. And that's what's making me sad about this whole thing Blu. That I learned something really horrible about myself. I will use my friend to get closer to my crush. And now, I am learning another new horrible thing about myself. I am making this about myself and not about you. You are supposed to be the one we should all be concern about because what you are going through is hard. All these changes happening around you. Yet here I am, making myself the center of all of these. I'm sorry..." AnneMarie's voice broke when she apologized. Tears suddenly swam in her yes. She sniffed, "I'm sorry Blu. Let's talk later..." she said before running away.

I remained on my spot. I wanted to run after her but I know that's not gonna help. AnneMarie's emotions are highstrung while I feel tired and vulnerable. I already said something ugly to my friend and if I won't remain and stop here, things might get a lot worse between us.

I should give it some time. I think...

Shit! I hate all of these. Really.

And the worst part...I don't know who is to blame for all of these happenings. I wish I know whose to blame so I can vent some of the frustrations and anger I am feeling right now.