It Will End In A Kiss

Feelings

(BLU)

I don't know what to say. I don't even know how to lift my head. I feel so ashamed. So guilty. I ruined our family vacation.

Robin was right. I am stupid in so many levels. I should have listened to him and not stay at the edge of the boat. I should have remained on the boat. And I should have taken up his offer on learning how to swim.

Now it's too late...I have ruined everything.

I hate this. I hate myself for imposing this mess on all of us.

And I hate that Mr.Gilbert and Mr.Akage are being too nice to me.

"Just stay in your bed Blu, but don't sleep." Mr.Akage said with concern still on his eyes.

"Don't worry, I will be with him." Mr.Gilbert smiled at me.

I don't deserve their kindness. "What about Robin?" Robin didn't come back to the beachhouse with us. After his outbursts in the island's infirmary, Robin left and was not yet seen again.

"Don't worry about Robin, I will look for him and keep him company..." Mr.Akage sighed. "Also, don't take his harsh words to heart. Robin can be...excitable at times."

Mr.Gilbert and I stared at Mr.Akage for that old fashioned term. Mr.Akage nodded. "Fine, he can be emotional. Robin has a temper."

"As all Akages do," Mr.Gilbert assured me before gently pulling me to the grand staircase by my hand. "Come on Blu, you better rest up. Stop concerning yourself with things for now. Just focus on yourself and be well..."

I rushed my words so I can tell convey my apology to them. "I'm sorry I disrupted the rest of our day. I know Robin is looking forward to stargazing on the yacht tonight."

Mr.Gilbert stopped walking to pass a gentle hand on my hair. "You were looking forward to it too. Accidents happen Blu, it's something no human can predict when to occur. The only thing we can do is stop being too inflexible that we let one accident rule our lives or days. It happened, no one died thank goodness, now we all need to let it go and move on. Nothing good will ever come down to dwelling about an accident that didn't kill anyone. But I do hope you learned your lessons well."

"I do," I nodded to Mr.Gilbert.

"Then that is enough," Mr.Akage said. "As long as you learn lessons from what happened, that should be enough. Go with Gilbert and lay down. You shouldn't be on your feet for too long." He urges us to move on.

They are letting me off easily. I don't know what to feel about that. It reminds me of my parents. My parents let me off easy as well. When I make mistakes, they will give me light punishments and small lectures but then we will all move on and I will try my best not to make the same mistake again.

My mother always says, "My Blu is a good boy. I'm raising a good son."

She was always proud of me for some reason. Now I wish she and Dad handed down those punishments harder. Maybe that would have stopped me from being a brat.

Mr.Gilbert and I went upstair and he helped me to wash up and change. I dove into the salty seawater, that's still on my body. I went to the bathroom to wash my body in the shower, mindful not to wet my bandaged head. Then I dried down and don the clothes Mr.Gilbert got from the cabinet for me.

I climbed on the bed and wondered what I can do to pass the time.

"You musn't strain your eyes so no reading or watching anything on your gadgets. You shouldn't put on earphones to listen to loud music as well. That might give you headaches. If you are hungry or thirsty, tell me. If you need to pee, tell me. If you are bored...well..." Mr.Gilbert winced before sighing and smiling at me. "That sea didn't kill you but I think boredom will." He teases me.