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.....................A take salon wasan ya canja, bily da batai tunanin hakan daga garesaba a wannan daren duk da dai yau jinta take wani sakayau kamar an sauke mata kaya tuni jikinta ya fara tsuma, zuciyarta da jininta na wani irin tsitstsinkewa, gashi ya hanata dukkan damar da zatai ƙorafi ko magiya, juyata yake duk yanda yaso da zafafan salonsa masu rikita ƙwanya da zuciyar duk macen data mallakesa matsayin mahaɗin rayuwarta, ta rumtse idanunta da ƙarfi lokacin da yake karanto___
بِسْمِ اللهِ اللّهُمَّ جَنِّبْنَا الشَّيْطَانَ، وَجَنِّبِ الشَّيْطَانَ مَا رَزَقْتَنَا.
Bismil-lah, allahumma jannibnash-shaytan, wajannibish-shaytana ma razaqtana.
         (Da sunan ALLAH. Ya ALLAH! Ka nisantar da shaidan daga garemu, kuma ka nisantar da shaidan daga abin da Ka azurta mu da shi).
        Ƙanƙamesa tai da sauri jikinta na wani irin rawa cikin gigitar data risketa batare datayi hasashe ko shiyaryama zuwan wannan daren ba.
          Abinda yay matuƙar birge Jay da mamakin matar tasa shine Jarumtar da bai zatoba daga gareta, ko sau ɗaya batai yunƙurin hanashi yin yanda yaso da ita ba, ta miƙa masa dukkan ragama baki ɗaya cike da juriya da dauriya da sadaukarwa, sai saukar ɗumin hawayenta kawai yake ji da ajiyar zuciyarta tamkar zata shiɗe. (Uhumm) baiji daga garetaba dangane da ɗaga murya balle akai ga kwakwazon da duniya zata fahimci ana dai-dai wajen. duk yanda yaso yin juriya wajen binta a hankali shima dan nuna tausayinta hakan ya gagara, komai ya ƙwace masa a lissafi itaɗin kawai yake gani abu mafi daraja da martaba a garesa a wannan daren dama cikin duniyar baki ɗayanta. Ƙaunarta da tausayinta na ratsa dukannin tsoka da ɓargon jikinsa da jijiyoyi yana gaurayewa da jininsa, bashi da bakin musaltawa, bashi da kalaman kwatantawa, bashi da ƙarfin shelantawa, abinda kawai ya sani shine itaɗin tadabance, idan yace tadaban yana nufin tadaban har ƙarƙashin ruhinsa. Nutsuwar da ya daɗe yana hasashenta a zahiri da mafarkinsa daga gareta yama riski fiye da hakan.......
        A zahiri Bilkisu ta hana kanta kuka mai sauti, amma wahala iya wahala shanta take a hannun Jay, yanda kawai take fitar da numfashi ɗai-ɗai zai baka tabbacin baije da wasaba. Hawaye kam ai wasu basa direwa wasu ke gangarowa. shi kansa bai fahimci ya tafka ɓarnaba sai da komai ya lafa, Sosai tausayinta ya sake mamayesa, taimakon gaggawa ya shiga bata ta kowace hanya data dace. Yanda take kuka sosai sai hankalinsa ya sake tashi, amma haka ya daure ya gasa mata jiki dan yasan shine babban gatan dazai mata a yanzun. Sai da ya tabbatar ta samu ƴar nutsuwa sannan ya barta ta ƙarisa gyara jikinta shi kuma ya fito ya cire bedsheet ɗin da duk yaɗan ɓaci, tunani yake anya kuwa baiji mata ciwo ba?....... Da sauri ya waiga bayansa jin kukanta, zanin gadon daya fara jawowa ya saki ya nufeta dan bai zaton zata fito ba, tarota yay jikinsa yana magana a hankali dan shi kansa muryarsa gaba ɗaya ta wani dadushe kamar mai mura, “Miyasa zaki fito kinsan bazaki iya tafiya ba?” Yay maganar yana kwantar da ita akan sofa.
         Hawayen dake ziraromin na share, dan ni kaɗai nasan azabar da nakeji, babu inda kemin daɗi a dukan jikina, dai-dai da bakina ɗaci yakemin sam babu ɗanɗano, tausayin dukkan matan da aka kusancesu ta ƙarfin fyaɗe ya kuma mamayemin zuciya, shiyyasa Amina ta koma kamar wata ƙaramar mahaukaciya a lokacin.......
     “Ya isa haka kukan mana uhmyim, kinga jikinki harya ɗauki zafin zazzaɓi, ina cewa matar tawa jarumace ashe raguwace?”. Haushi maganarsa ta bani, dan haka nasa hannayena biyu ina kai masa ƙananun duka a ƙirji. Hannayen nawa ya riƙe yana ƙaramar dariya, “Oh to yi haƙuri jarumace, giwar mata, bara na duba wajen nagani bakiji ciwo ba”. Ƙanƙamesa nai ina sake fashewa da kuka, nace, “Ni dai a'a, banji wani ciwoba”.
       Jay yay murmushi kawai yana girgiza kansa, miƙewa yay ya ƙarisa cire zanin gadon ya shimfiɗa wani, rigarsa mai ɗan kauri data kai mata har cinya ya saka mata, yasa towel ya tsane mata kanta sosai gudun kar mura ta kamata, dama ga jikinta yay mugun ɗaukar zafin zazzaɓi, tausayinta duk ya gallabi ransa, cak ya ɗauketa dan harta fara barci ya maidata saman gadon ya kwantar, so yake tasha magani amma baison tadata, dan haka ya ɗakko man zafi kawai ya shafa mata a jiki kozataji ƴar nutsuwa.
            Gaba ɗaya a hidimar Bilkisu Jawaad ya kusa cinye wannan dare, sai da ya tabbatar komai yayi masa yanda yake buƙata sannan ya samu shima ya kwanta, wani irin zafi yaji jikinta ya ɗauka, sai sauke ajiyar zuciya take a jajjere cikin barci, fuskarta ya ƙurama idanu yana kallon yanda ta ɓata fuska alamar dai bata jin daɗi har a cikin barcin. Yaɗan lumshe udanunsa ya sake buɗewa akan fuskarta yana wani ɗan murmushi, ƴar yarinyar nan itace ta nema zautar masa da tunani, “UBANGIJI mai hikima, UBANGIJI mai rahama da jinƙan bayinsa” yay maganar a fili tare da sumbatar goshinta da laɓɓanta da sukai jazur sosai saboda wahalar da sukasha a hannunsa. ‘Yanda take mai sanyi haka komanta yake mai sanyi’ ya ayyana a ransa yana rungumeta tsam cikin jikinsa har saida ta motsa sannan ya sassauta mata. A haka shima barci ɓarawo yay awon gaba dashi.