Beyond Control

Chapter 13

~*Wei Wuxian's POV*~

Lan Zhan pulled me into his lap, "should not have ran like that," he told me.

"I...I didn't know what you were thinking...I was expecting you to reprimand me and yell at me. Or even push me away," I explained, "before you could do any of those things, I ran..."

"Will never yell at you or reprimand you," he told me.

"I'm so sorry," I told him.

"No need to say sorry or thank you between us," he said, "I understand you are having a hard time."

"I don't want to lose you, Lan Zhan," I said through more tears.

"You never will," he assured me.

He then grabbed my face and kissed me. This time, I responded back to him by kissing him back. I loved the feeling of his lips against mine. They were so soft and they tasted like sweet tea. The kiss didn't last too long but it was a nice moment. He pulled away from me and still held onto my face.

"I love you, Wei Ying," he said to me.

"And I love you, Lan Zhan," I said in response.

We sat there for a moment until I felt a little fatigued and some of my body started aching again. I groaned a bit as I stood up. Lan Zhan then lifted me off the ground and held me in his arms.

"What are you doing?" I asked, surprised.

"Carrying you back," he said and started to make his way to the Jingshi.

Lan Xichen was actually waiting for us outside. He smirked at both of us, mostly me, as Wangji carried me inside.

"Don't you dare say a word, Xichen-Ge," I said as Lan Zhan set me on the bed.

"I didn't say anything," he said, "did you like being carried, though?"

I blushed and looked away from him, "I am a bit tired."

He laughed a little, "well get some rest. Some of the medicine you take is to make you tired. So rest up."

I nodded as I removed my boots and laid down to sleep for a while.

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~*Lan Xichen's POV*~

I have to admit, my brother has courage. I walked away completely when I saw him make the move to kiss Wuxian. I decided to wait for them to return to The Jingshi. They came back shortly only to see my brother carrying Wuxian in his arms like a bride. I couldn't help but smile at the sight. Of course, Wuxian demands I not say a word. He got out of the conversation by saying he was tired. Though, I don't blame him. After the medicine he takes and the emotional moment he just had, it can make a person feel exhausted.

Wangji and I waited for a few minutes until we knew for sure he was asleep before I spoke, "I want you to keep a close watch on him, Wangji," I warned, "it wasn't your fault but Wuxian had a moment in the backhills. I saw him holding the amulet and contemplating destroying it."

My brother grew worried, "he broke to that point?" He asked, "I'm sorry."

"It's alright," I said, "I didn't tell you this to upset you or to fault you. It was neither of your faults. It's just, Wei Wuxian has had a rough time. It was already hard for him to open up about his golden core and the pain he endured. He needs to be assured that he is safe and welcome here. As well as he has people to confide in."

Wangji nodded, "I will watch him," he said, "the Wens?"

"They have taken some rooms in the infirmary to heal," I informed, "Da-Ge took another group back to Qinghe with him. He is willing to stand against Jin Guangshan about his abuse of power...Wen Qing and Wen Ning are alright. They are healing a bit faster as they have golden cores. Wen Qing is a healer so she is helping out with her family...if she is available at some point, I'd like to sit down with her and talk about the procedure she did. Maybe she has other ideas on what we can do to help Wei Wuxian."

Brother nodded, "alright, keep me informed. I will watch over Wei Ying...has Jiang Wanyin asked for him yet?"

"No, his sister suspected there was something off about him and knew that I wasn't just taking him here for some help in fierce corpses," I said, "she wants to help him but it's been hard for her. She's been having to keep Jiang Wanyin from being too harsh on Wei Wuxian. She is also engaged so that is another issue that she is dealing with."

"I thought they broke the engagement," Wangji said.

"They did but I guess Madam Jin talked Jin Zixuan and Jiang Yanli into trying to work things out," I explained, "I've been meaning to ask you. Have you suspected something about Jin Guangyao? Wei Wuxian told me he was wary of him before."

"I am sorry but I don't think much of him," he said honestly, "not that he may be unimportant or his is. I just don't pay too much attention to other people."

I nodded, "I understand...I just thought I'd ask you. He was the one who told me about his father's plans to get to Wei Wuxian somehow and also about Qiongqi Path."

"Why?" He asked, "why would he give that information to you? Especially about trying to get to Wei Ying? Does he think Wei Ying will listen to you about handing over the amulet?"

"I am not going to convince Wei Wuxian of doing anything. He has made his choice and I also agree with it. If that amulet falls into Jin Guangshan's hands, it could cause problems," I said.

"Will help you if you need me," he said, "maybe we can find a safe way to destroy the amulet without it harming Wei Ying."

I nodded, "we would have to learn more about the amulet and resentful energy to potentially try anything...we'd have to sit down and talk with Wei Wuxian on how he made it and how he uses the resentment and how it works...I'm not sure if he'd be willing to talk about it."

"We will ask him about it when he feels a little better," Wangji suggested.

"Might be the best way to go about it," I said, "I should go check on the Wen Remnants. Do you need anything?"

"No," he said, "will let you know."

I nodded and stood up, "take care of yourself too, Didi."

"I will," he said.

And with that, I left the Jingshi. It was nice that he was more open in conversation. I bet he is trying to improve on that for Wei Wuxian's sake. I will do what I can to help my Didi in any way that I can. There is so much that is happening and I feel like it's only the beginning of it all.