Beyond Control

Chapter 108

Even though Xichen went to go get Wen Qing, Wangji wanted to start tending to Wuxian's wounds. He gently laid him down on the bed and went to go get a small tub of warm water and a cloth. He then started to slowly clean up Wuxian's wounds. Lan Wangji had tears forming in his eyes. His husband was still hurting and he doesn't know what to do to fix it. He was tired of seeing Wuxian this way. Lan Wangji was more disappointed in himself than ever. This was all because he could not ease on him, and let him live more freely. Lan Wangji could have sworn he was letting Wuxian do just that, but he did not understand what was happening. He needed help, just as much as Wei Wuxian needed it.

Lan Wangji removed Wuxian's trousers and covered him up with a blanket as he cleaned the wounds on his leg. Wangji questioned how Wuxian managed to get these type of wounds. Wangji rested his head on Wuxian's chest and let out a sob. Xichen and Wen Qing entered The Jingshi only to see Wangji crying on his husband's chest. Wen Qing did not even know what to think at the moment. She did not know exactly what was happening as she has not been in the loop of what Wuxian was going through.

"What happened?" Wen Qing asked examining Wuxian's wounds.

"All we know is that they are self-inflicted," Xichen answered.

"Do not...remove the blanket," Wangji said through his sobs, "Not wearing robes...Cleaning his wounds."

Wen Qing nodded in agreement. What she did do, was take Wuxian's arm to check his vitals and examine the wounds more thoroughly, "They look like binding wounds of some sort. There are deposits of soil in the wounds, can you see there?" Wen Qing showed Xichen and Wangji.

"The vines?" Wangji suggested, "Earth cultivation."

"Possibly," Wen Qing said as she helped clean his wounds, "As for his mental state, as I have been out of the loop as to what is going on, can one of you fill me in?"

"A'Xian is feeling like he is not involved in the sect all that much," Xichen explained, "I am wondering if there is more too it, but he took off the other night, only leaving a note behind. He came back later the next afternoon, but he has not been the same since. He feels like we are mad at him."

Wen Qing sighed, "I am not sure if A'Ying will do so, but prescribe a medication to help with his mental health. He has been battling depression, post trauma, anxiety, and panic attacks. He needs something to help him get his mind back on track. I also advise he talks to someone more frequently on how he is feeling. He may not want to do it, but he needs it. All we can do is try to convince him to attempt to try these methods. We cannot help him if he keeps everything bottled up until he breaks like this. If he does not want to talk to you or Wangji, maybe someone who he trusts, like me or ask his Shijie to visit for a while to see if she can talk with him. Maybe even get him out of the sect for a little while. He might feel restricted at the moment."

Wangji nodded in agreement, "I was thinking about having him visit his grandmother," Wangji said, "He went there when he left in the middle of the night. She also wants to look at the scripts we found at Moling Su. Wei Ying and I can go visit her and maybe she has some ideas on how to help him."

"It might be best for him to visit her," Xichen said, "While you two are away, I can focus on getting his personal room ready. A place where he can work on his talismans, charms, and make other things as he wants."

"Okay," Wangji replied.

After talking and tending to Wuxian's wounds, Xichen left with Wen Qing. Wangji carefully put fresh robes on Wuxian and sat beside him on the bed. Wuxian felt Wangji's presence and snuggled close to him. His head moving to Wangji's lap, and Wangji running his fingers through Wuxian's hair. Wuxian was asleep so it might have been more for himself, but Wangji started to hum Wangxian. As he was humming, it was as if it allowed Wuxian to open his connection to him again as he could feel Wuxian's energy again. Wangji realized how empty he feels when Wuxian blocks himself from him. He did not want him to do that anymore. He wanted to be a better partner, and he wanted to talk with Wuxian about what was going on with him. He wanted to listen to him, be his shoulder, his comfort, and his attention. He wanted to let Wuxian know, he was there for him.

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Sorry of recent chapters seem to be a bit shorter then usual. More chapters coming soon though.