Beyond Control

Chapter 29

~*Wei Wuxian's POV*~

I remember falling asleep with my head on Xichen-Ge's shoulder. I remembered the comfort from him. Now, I was receiving similar comfort, but their body was a bit more slim but muscular. The comfort of laying down on this body, feels like heaven. Xichen-Ge is like a teddy bear. This person, wasn't Xichen-Ge. I opened my eyes to Xichen-Ge across the room. He was smiling at me though as he saw I was awake. I looked up to see who I was laying on, and it was Lan Zhan. He sent me a gentle smile and I couldn't help but smile back at him. I carefully sat up and pulled Lan Zhan into a hug.

"I missed you," I told him, "I wish you would visit more."

"Will visit you more," he said.

I pulled away from the hug, but very gently grabbed his face. Not even caring that Xichen-Ge was potentially watching. I then pulled Lan Zhan in and kissed him on the lips. It has been too long since I've felt his cool soft lips against my own. Lan Zhan seemed more prepared this time and responded back to me. He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me close to him. I slowly pulled my lips away and opened my eyes. Lan Zhan's ears were red, but his lips curved into a smile again.

"If I can get a smile out of you every day, I feel like it's an accomplishment," I told him, "you should smile more. It looks good on you."

"Only smile for Wei Ying," he said.

I let out a chuckle and nodded, "it's progress. I'll take it," I told him. I then sat up in lotus position, "how am I going to do this?"

"What?" Lan Zhan asked.

"I can start trying to cultivate a new Golden Core," I answered.

"That's good news," Lan Zhan said, "meditate."

I sighed, "I...can't."

"Why?" He asked.

"I've never been able to. I was playing with Jiang Cheng and Shijie when my core formed for the first time. I never meditated because I don't have the patience for it. So I'd play around, hunt pheasants, go swimming, practice archery. I've never had a relaxed mind," I explained and lowered my head.

I heard Lan Zhan sigh. He then lifted my head by his finger under my chin, "we will teach you," he said, "your body is still healing, you can't do those things right now. Meditating is the best thing for you right now."

"Wangji, why don't you take out your guqin and play Tranquility. I can guide him through it," Xichen-Ge said.

"Now?" I asked.

"Yes, now," Xichen-Ge said.

Lan Zhan moved over to the desk across the room. Xichen-Ge sat beside me and nodded to Lan Zhan. Lan Zhan started playing and Xichen-Ge started guiding me in what to do.

"Sit in proper lotus position and close your eyes," he told me. I did as he said. I adjusted myself and closed my eyes, "start by focusing on your breathing. Make sure it is calm and steady."

I took a couple calming deep breaths. It helped my body relax more. My mind was less busy by just that little bit of breathing.

"Now, tune into your senses and focus on your body and the energy within it," he said.

I focused. The taste in the air, was crisp and clean. The smell was calm, mixed with sandalwood from Lan Zhan, and aromatic tea from Xichen-Ge. The sound of the space. All I could hear was Lan Zhan playing. It was a very relaxing tune. Finally, the touch. I focused on the feeling of touch within myself. The small amount of spiritual energy crawling around my body. I pulled that energy in, and guided it to my dantian.

I felt my spiritual passageways open up freely, and my spiritual energy started to build. Focused on that feeling, I fell into meditation. I couldn't really hear Lan Zhan playing anymore even though he was. I could tell that Xichen-Ge was no longer speaking either. He must have noticed I had found my focus.

As I sat there, I tried to remember that familiar thrum of a energy. It's been so long that I honestly think I forgot how it felt. But the longer I was in meditation and my spiritual energy was slowly building, I could feel my dantian getting warm. That warmth spread through my veins, with my eyes closed, it was dark but suddenly, I could see a light flicker. I took a couple calm breaths as the spiritual energy was building within my dantian.

Then, something that I never thought I'd feel again. That thrum of life flowing into my body. That thrum of life and light. The spiritual energy that built in my dantian, created a new golden core. The theories that had been made, are true. The thrum was soft and light but it will only build with time.

With the help of the Lan Sect cultivation methods, it will become strong again. I opened my eyes and saw that it's been about an hours time. Lan Zhan and Xichen-Ge were at the table conversing and drinking tea. I blinked a couple times and slowly placed my hand on my dantian. It was there. The golden core was actually there. I felt tears falling down my cheeks.

"I...I..I did it," I whispered.

The two looked at me. They saw the tears and came over to me. One sitting on either side of me.

"I..have a...golden core..." I said happily and couldn't help but start crying more.

"You did it," Lan Zhan said, "attempted the impossible and you achieved it."

I nodded, "thank you both so much," I said.

They hugged me together. It will take me a while before I can hold a sword without tiring, but I know I can't push myself. I have to cultivate it properly or I could actually damage this new core and I could actually lose all my chances of cultivating anymore.