Beyond Control

Chapter 51

~*Wei Wuxian's POV*~

What ever happened, it felt good. I felt so much more connected to Lan Zhan at that moment. What happened before was a misunderstanding, and Lan Zhan was upset with me. He was upset with himself. It is true that we both need to work on communication, but I never know if it is okay to open up to him. It is like I can read some of his expressions but there are some I can't seem to get past. When he told me I can talk to him about anything, he meant it.

As we were eating, I decided to tell him how I was feeling before the fire appeared, "Lan Zhan, is it wrong for me to not be sure if I want to contact my mother? Is it wrong for me to not want to try and find out more about my grandmother? If she wanted to help me she would have looked for me. If she loved her daughter, why keep her from entering to see her after she left the mountain? I was just so caught up in thinking that I felt wronged and abandoned by Baoshan that the rage caused the fire, and I was so panicked I couldn't think straight. I could hear you speak to me, but I couldn't hear you. I could hear Xichen-Ge but I couldn't hear him. It was just enough for me to remember to relax my thoughts...I'm sorry I worried you and upset you."

"Wei Ying," Lan Zhan said immediately after I stopped talking, "it isn't wrong to be upset with her. She might not even know of what happened or know of you. We won't know if we don't try to seek some sort of answers."

"I know, but it's just what was running through my head. I didn't know that fire would come out of it," I said, "I can't even get the water part controlled, how am I supposed to manage fire?"

"Maybe these elements are similar to resentment, it responds to your emotions," Lan Zhan suggested, "with the water you are calm and a bit more relaxed. With the fire, you were stressed and a bit angry. So I am guessing the other elements respond in a similar manner. Unless you can control them in a different way. It's just from my observation."

I nodded, "I just don't know what to do."

"We discussed trying inquiry, trying to find answers through your parents. If not, we could try to find Baoshan or someone who has a similar situation. I understand that you are second guessing it, and that you have a bit of resentment towards Baoshan, but don't let it cloud your judgment," Lan Zhan told me.

"I guess," I said, "I think...I'm more afraid about finding out."

"Why?" He asked.

"If you tried to summon your mother, wouldn't you feel afraid?" I asked. He didn't say anything but looked down at his food. I sighed and realized I might have just overstepped it a bit, "I'm sorry...I didn't mean to be disrespectful."

Lan Zhan looked at me, "it is okay. I would be afraid...don't know what I would say to her...thought about trying though."

"I understand," I said, "why don't we just, talk about tomorrow? I need some time to think it over. More than just a day."

"Take as much time as you need," he said.

"I want to go to the library and check out what happened to us earlier," I told him, "why I feel so much better from that one kiss."

"We will, finish eating," he demanded.

I did as he said. After we ate we went to the library pavilion. Though, we didn't know exactly what to search for.

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~*Lan Xichen's POV*~

I spent time in at my home looking through scrolls, reading letters, and other forms of documents. After Wangji went to be with Wuxian after the small disagreement they had, I wanted to let them have some time alone. As I was looking through documents, I saw a letter from Da-Ge, saying that there are reports of puppets and corpses roaming around Yiling and a city in Yunmeng, called Yunping City. I told him to keep me informed and send for aid if he needs it. I then left to go let Uncle know of the new information. As I was heading to the Orchid Room, I was passing by the library and I spotted Wangji and Wuxian there.

"Lan Zhan, what exactly to we search for?" A'Xian asked.

"Maybe something on cultivation partners?" He suggested. Him saying cultivation partners, piqued my interest and I couldn't help but step in to know what was going on. I also felt I could be of some help.

"Wangji, A'Xian, what are you looking for?" I asked entering the library.

"Huan-Ge..." Wangji's face was a bit red.

"Want me to ask?" A'Xian asked Wangji. Wangji nodded. A'Xian then turned to me, "this is a bit...awkward to talk about."

"Do you need a privacy barrier?" I asked.

"No, we are just not sure what to search for exactly," he said, "when Lan Zhan and I last...Kissed...something...strange happened."

"What?" I asked, not missing his hesitation and nervousness.

"Mouths glowed blue, my core got stronger, and Wei Ying healed from his injury," Wangji explained.

I blinked a couple times, "are you sure?" I asked wanting completely clarification.

"We are sure," Wangji answered, "what do you know?"

"Come with me," I said.

I lead them out of the library and to the Orchid room. Uncle was there so I think it might be a bit awkward for them but he would want to know this.

"Xichen, what are you three doing?" He asked.

"I need to check A'Xian and Wangji's compatibility," I told him, "something they told me, has me thinking I know what it is but I want to be sure."

"What did they tell you?" He asked.

"Through...kissing, they shared spiritual energy. Wangji's golden core gained strength, and some injuries that A'Xian had, healed...and they glowed blue," I explained.

"Are you sure?" He asked. The boys nodded, "come."

Just in a room beside the orchid room, there was a special mirror that we had. A drop of blood between two people. It tests compatibility, as well as their fates together. It was called the Mirror of Fates. Uncle took out the mirror, and placed it on a table in the center of the room.

"I want each of you to put a drop of blood on this mirror," Uncle said.

The two complied. Wangji and A'Xian added a drop of blood, and now we had to wait for the results.