Beyond Control

Chapter 91

Wangji was spending time with Wen Ning, Wen Qing, and A'Yuan, for the three days that he and Wuxian were to be apart. He did not like the feeling of being away from Wuxian. He felt empty and it was suffocating as well. He had to try to get through this though. He was marrying him in a few days and then he never had to worry about being apart from him.

Wangji was more anxious about the bonding process. He knows how he was to proceed with it, but he did not want to hurt Wuxian in the process. He has noticed a few times while they were messing around that Wuxian was anxious about Wangji's size and has made comments on it before. Wuxian was, of course, all too thrilled for it, but he was nervous about how......Wangji would fit.

Wangji smirked at the first time Wuxian even realized the size difference. Although, the memory had slightly aroused Wangji. He cleared his throat as he tried to get his mind off of how his first time being intimate in any way with Wuxian. Thinking about the problem for the next step, he was back to normal.

He wanted to speak with Wen Ning or Wen Qing about it, as they were healers and they may have solutions, but it was such an embarrassing conversation for Wangji. He also did not want to bring it up with a toddler around. He had to wait for an opportunity to talk to Wen Qing or ask her for some privacy to talk without a child nearby.

Wangji sighed quietly. He hoped it did not get anyone's attention but it got Wen Qing's attention anyway. Being around Xichen long enough, he taught her how to read Wangji. Wangji was a person who kept his emotions and expressions hidden. Xichen taught her that you have to really focus on Wangji's eyes and his micro expressions. After some time, Wen Qing started to observe Wangji more and started to understand how easy it was to interpret Wangji's thoughts if she really focused on him. Noticing his stress that he was dealing with, it was something that Wen Qing knew he was needing to talk about.

That was another thing that Xichen has taught her. Wangji is not one to talk about what was wrong with him unless you asked him and really try to pry him open. It takes a specific amount of practice to get it right. Wen Qing thought that she should at least try. As she was to be married to Xichen in the future, she wanted to be more comfortable with Wangji and she also wanted Wangji to be comfortable around her. She saw Wuxian as her Didi, and she now wants that same thing with Wangji. So she was determined to take the time she needed to work on her sibling relationship with Wangji.

"Wangji?" Wen Qing asked calmly. Wangji looked up at Wen Qing, "are you doing okay?"

Wangji responded with a nod, "would rather talk without a toddler present."

Wen Qing looked at A'Yuan who was napping on Wen Ning's lap, "A'Ning, want to take A'Yuan to Grandma Wen?"

"Okay," Wen Ning said and carefully stood up without waking A'Yuan. Wen Ning then left the room.

"Alright, we are alone," Wen Qing said, "are you more comfortable to talk?"

"Not really," Wangji answered as he could feel his ears and the back of his neck get warm.

"Is it a medical issue?" She asked.

"Not really but sort of," Wangji said, not sure how to answer her.

"I am a healer, Wangji. No matter how embarrassing it may seem to talk about certain things, I will never share anything that is said between us. I will keep it confidential. You have my word," She said.

"I do not want to harm Wei Ying," Wangji said.

"I am sure that you are fine in that situation," Wen Qing told him, "you are always kind, respectful, and gentle with him."

"Dual cultivation," Wangji clarified, "do not want to hurt Wei Ying."

Wen Qing tried to hold back a smirk, "I see," she said, "I take it A'Xian is the bottom in this scenario."

Wangji blinked and was not sure what to say to her now. Wen Qing giggled, "I understand your issue," she said and stood up. She then went over to a cabinet on the opposite side of the room and took out a small jar. She then returned to Wangji's side and sat down, "here, this is an oil that helps make things easier. You just have to apply to both you and him...I am hoping I do not need to explain how to do that."

Wangji shook his head and took the small jar, "thank you," he said.

"You know how to do it, right?" Wen Qing asked, "Dual Cultivation I mean?"

Wangji did not want to answer that question. He had an idea of how it was done and the amount of times he and Wuxian have messed around, he has the notion of how to proceed to the next step. He just did not want to make Wuxian uncomfortable.

"I know what to do," Wangji told her, "thank you for asking."

"I am just teasing you a little bit," She said, "I am not worried. There should also not be any issues during the bonding process. You both have shared energy a few times now. So it should be fairly normal for you two at this point."

Wangji nodded, "we do not need to discuss anything else about it," he said.

"Very well," Wen Qing said, "is there anything else you are worried about?"

"The only other thing I am worried about is that Wei Ying's nightmares and panic attacks are haunting him again. I do not know how much I can help him," Wangji told her.

"You managed to help calm him down that past few times," Wen Qing said, "all you need to do is be patient with him and always assure him that you are there for him. No matter how many times you have to repeat yourself to him, it is always better to say so. Also do not make it seem like these attacks are his fault.

"Always give him a chance to talk and try to sympathize with him. Do not pressure him to do more than what he may feel comfortable with either. Also, do not be afraid to ask him what he wants. He may just need you to hold him or comfort him, but it is always good to let them talk if they are bothered by something."

Wangji nodded, "I will remember that. Thank you."

"You're welcome," Wen Qing said, "if you ever need help with anything, do not be afraid to come talk to me."

Wangji was grateful for her. He was happy that he had another person to turn to when he needed someone, if he needed someone.