Beyond Control

Chapter 109

((Mature Content in Chapter))
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Wei Wuxian opened his eyes to find himself laying between a pair of legs and his head was on a warm, comfortable stomach. He knew who he was laying on, and it was his husband. Wuxian slowly sat up and tried to move out of his husband's lap, but Wangji immediately grabbed him and pulled him back into his chest. Wuxian winced from the sudden sting of his wounds on his body.

"Sorry, I did not mean to irritate your wounds, but I also do not want you to move, Love," Wangji told him. Wuxian shook his head and was ready to speak but Wangji started to speak again, "you are my husband and I am yours. You have a right to shut down if you are feeling upset but please to do not push me away. I have spoken to my brother and Wen Qing. Wen Qing has some ideas on how to help you. If you do not want to go through with her idea, why don't you and I go visit Baoshan for a while. Get away from the sects as you heal?"

"What idea?" Wuxian asked, his voice cracked slightly.

"Wen Qing thought about making a medicine for you to help with your health. It can help calm your mind from the stress, post trauma, depression, anxiety, and panic attacks. She thinks you might decline her offer," Wangji explained, "it will make you tired so it would just be once a day, before you go to sleep at night."

"If I agree, can we still visit my grandmother?" Wuxian asked.

"Of course," Wangji answered, "and even if you did not agree, I would still take you to see her if you wanted to."

Wuxian nodded. Tears threatened to fall from his eyes, but he blinked several times to hold them back. He then placed his head on Wangji's chest, "I'm sorry."

"It's okay, Wei Ying," Wangji told him as he carefully wrapped his arms around him and held him close, "but can you promise me something?"

Wuxian looked up at him, "hmm?"

"Promise me, instead of reaching to this point of you breaking, please talk to me first," Wangji said, "I might not have good advice, but I want to listen to you talk. I want to know what is wrong, I want to know how you are feeling, and I want you to feel comfortable with me, trust me, and need me as you want to need me."

"I promise...but can you promise me something in return?" Wuxian asked.

"Anything," he said.

"Promise me, no matter what it is I want to talk to you about, you will not reprimand me, or scold me. You will not yell at me or be upset for whatever mistakes I made. I could tell both you and your brother wanted to yell at me and scold me when I came back that day after I left in the middle of the night," Wuxian explained, "I am always going to assume I have done something wrong at certain times. As I have always been told that's all I am good for...doing something wrong."

"I promise you," Wangji said holding onto Wuxian's face in his hands, "that day I scolded you for destroying the amulet on your own, I saw what it did to you. It broke me when I saw that. I will never forgive myself if I ever treat you like that again. I will never scold you, or reprimand you. You have a safe place to confide to with me."

Wuxian nodded and shoved his face into Wangji's neck. All he could do, was cry. He needed to let it out. Wangji knew that. Wuxian has had such a hard time these past few months, and Wangji just wanted him to be happy again. He wanted his happy, bubbly, funny, loving husband back. Wuxian then sat up, pulling his head out of Wangji's neck.

Lan Wangji placed a hand upon Wei Wuxian's cheek, his thumb grazing the soft contour of Wei Wuxian's mouth. Wuxian placed his hand over Wangji's and tilted his head into Wangji's touch. Wangji pulled him in and their lips collided. Lan Wangji explored and caressed every corner of his mouth. He drank in Wei Wuxian's moans as Wei Wuxian melted in his arms. Then he bit down forcefully on Wie Wuxian's bottom lip, causing Wei Wuxian to gasp. Wei Wuxian was dazed and panting as he clung to Lan Wangji.