Beyond Control

Chapted 59

~*Wei Wuxian's POV*~

"Can I see your ribbon?" Lan Zhan asked.

I carefully took it out of my hair and handed it to him. He smiled at me and wrapped one end around my wrist, while the other was wrapped around his.

I smirked, "this is like in the cold cave...you used your forehead ribbon so the chord assassination wouldn't attack me," I reminded.

"Really? You two got engaged way back then?" Xichen-Ge asked.

"Huh?" I asked, "the forehead ribbon...isn't it on regulating one's self?"

"And can only be touched by there parents, there kids, and significant others," Xichen-Ge added.

My eyes widened, "excuse me?" I then looked at Lan Zhan, "why didn't you tell me that?"

"The amount of times you wrong the rules and principles, you never knew?" Lan Zhan asked.

"You really expect me to remember all three thousand rules?" I asked, "I'm lucky enough I didn't break any since being back here."

"Over time you will remember them all," Lan Zhan told me.

"Wait...did you like me back then when you did it?" I asked.

Lan Zhan was quiet. The way he was looking at me, said it all. He did. I felt my face get a bit warm, "I guess you were confused a bit back then...I wasn't exactly the easiest person to be around either."

"I have liked you since the first day we met. Remembered you as a kid, and saw you again at the gate many years later. Still the same smile," he explained, "I just did not want to admit it."

I just stared at him at that point. He has been fond of me since the very beginning. He was cold and distant because he was afraid of my rejection I'm sure. Back then, I always thought I was straight and into women. I would flirt with them all the time but I would never get anywhere with them. When I met Lan Zhan, it was like something inside of me ignited. Maybe I didn't want to admit it back then, but I was fond of him back then too.

I cleared my throat and looked at my ribbon tied around our wrists, "so why did you tie the ribbon like this?" I asked.

"So you can see and here her with me," he said, "if it is too much, you do not have to wear it."

I shook my head, "I will wear it," I told him, "I'm just a bit nervous."

"That is normal," Xichen-Ge stated, "even if she does not answer, I am sure a spirit will come forward. If they do, you can ask them if they know anything of your situation. You are looking for anything in your new cultivation, Baoshan, or even your family history."

I nodded, "I understand," I said, "anything else I must know?"

"When asking questions, the spirit cannot lie. As I am here they will only speak the truth or they will choose not to answer," Lan Zhan told me.

I nodded, "okay," I let in a deep breath, "I think I am ready."

Lan Zhan nodded back to me and started to play inquiry. Calling out to my mother's spirit, "Cangse Sanren?" I heard him asked, "are you there?"

Soon enough, a woman appeared. She had beautiful facial features, her hair was long and to her waist, those she was a spirit, she had a blue hue, but her robes were white, with red and purple accents. Her eyes were as calm and kind as her smile....it was really her.

"A-Niang?" I whispered. She smiled at me. I felt Xichen-Ge place his hand on my back for comfort and support. I looked at Lan Zhan to continue.

"What is your first question?" Lan Zhan asked me.