|Sparks Fly| A Hawk/Sam Fanfiction

Chapter 72: Tangled Emotions

*Eli's P.O.V*

I rolled my eyes as my phone had yet again buzzed. It's seriously getting on my nerves.

Miguel thinks I should completely answer him when I don't necessarily feel like it because it still irks me. Just thinking of the image of him and Sam talking at the water park.

It made my blood boil. It made me want to punch something but I have to compose myself.

With a swift move, I grabbed my phone that's on my bedside table and I looked through the messages that Miguel sent me.

Miguel🐍: Hawk, can we talk?

Miguel🐍: I know you're mad at me.

Miguel🐍: I can promise you that Sam and I were just talking. I'm not going to do anything.

Miguel🐍: I know that Sam is taking a break from relationships so I have no intentions of trying to rekindle something. Please believe me when I say that.

Miguel🐍: Can you please call me?

I rolled my eyes yet again as I read the messages.

This whole thing is making me wonder if Miguel's gonna try something, despite what Sam has told him. Jealousy just started bubbling up inside me, twisting my insides.

I tried to shake off those thoughts, but they kept coming back. The image of Sam and Miguel laughing together, having a good time, it's burned into my brain. It's like a constant reminder that I'm not the only one who can make her smile like that.

Insecurities started creeping in, making me question my own worth. Am I not enough for her? Does she secretly want to be with Miguel instead? It's eating me up inside, this fear of losing her to someone else. Especially if it's my best friend.

I took a deep breath, trying to calm myself down, but it didn't help. The jealousy just kept growing stronger. I knew I had to do something about it, to address these emotions head-on.

So, I made a decision. I grabbed my phone and turned it off, shutting out the world and those messages that were tearing me apart.

As I powered down my phone, a mix of determination and vulnerability washed over me.

I needed to be by myself for awhile, get away from what's happening. Because if I continue to look through Miguel's texts, I'll feel hurt because I'll keep going back to him and Sam talking at the water park.

I shouldn't be jealous but I am.

With a sigh, I lean back into my bed, my head hitting my pillow.

Then as I'm laying there, I also can't help but think about the message that Sam sent me.

About how she's going to Ohio with her mom and brother for awhile. What for? I don't know but it's none of my business. I don't need to know what's going on.

She said that when she gets back from Ohio, her and I can talk. So we'll be able to talk about us? We can possibly try to talk and then work through any problems we have. Then we can be happy again? That feels like a good idea to me.

A part of me wishes that Sam was here now so that we can have that conversation. But it'll have to wait until she comes back.

I think Sam is already in Ohio so I wonder what she's doing. The thought made me curious.

I continue to lay on the bed, engulfed in silence, my mind racing with thoughts and emotions.

The weight of uncertainty and jealousy still hanging over me. It felt suffocating, like I couldn't escape this internal battle.