|Sparks Fly| A Hawk/Sam Fanfiction

Chapter 82: Echoes Of The Past

*Eli's P.O.V*

Ex-Sam😡: Eli, can we please talk?

Ex-Sam😡: I do feel terrible about what happened.

Ex-Sam😡: I've always told you that I want to be with you, not Miguel.

I rolled my eyes at that message. If she really wanted to be with me and not Miguel, she wouldn't have shared a kiss with him when she's taking a break from relationships to focus on herself.

Ex-Sam😡: I do care about you, Eli.

Ex-Sam😡: Please believe me.

With a sigh, I shut my phone off and put it on my bedside table. I wanna forget about Sam so her texting me isn't helping. It's a constant reminder of the hurt she's given me.

And there's no way she'll be able to undo it. She caused my pain and she now has to deal with it.

Since that specific event happened, I tried to keep myself busy so that I can get rid of Sam's memory. I can pretend that she doesn't exist. She doesn't have to in my world because I quite frankly can't deal with her motives. Whatever motive she might have. I just don't care anymore.

Or at least, that's what I tell myself. About how I don't care.

It's like I hate her but I still care. But I want to drown her pain, her hurt, her memory. Take it away from me.

I started to get rid of the pain when I changed her contact name. No more lovey dovey shit. Let me make it clear what Sam is to me.

Then when it came to being on Instagram, I had archived every one of the pictures that had Sam and I together. I couldn't completely bring it to myself to delete the pictures so archive was the next best thing.

Then I kept my Instagram bio the same. It just said, "2019 All Valley champion."

I had my lock screen changed because it used to be a picture of Sam. But then I changed it to a picture of a cool graphic design.

I'm literally trying to get rid of any memory that is Sam LaRusso.

I got tired of having Sam stuck in my head so I have to find a way to distract myself. Or at least keep my mind occupied.

I've talked to Demetri about One Tree Hill so I decided to watch an episode.

I got the show set up on my tv screen before I ended up putting on an episode. I found one that's perfect and can fit my mood before I entered the place that's called Tree Hill.

And man, watching that episode of One Tree Hill hit me right in the feels.

I mean, seeing Nathan pouring his heart out to Keith about love being full of garbage... it really got to me.

I could feel the pain and heartbreak Nathan was going through, especially with Haley being away.

As I watched that scene, it was like a punch to the gut. It made me reflect on my own experiences and the rollercoaster of emotions that love can bring.

I couldn't help but think about the times I've been heartbroken and how it made me question everything about love.

And we all know how many times I've been heartbroken.

You know, it's crazy how a TV show can stir up so many thoughts. It made me wonder if love is worth all the pain and struggles.

Is it just a never-ending cycle of heartache and disappointment? Or can it truly withstand the challenges that life throws at it?