lost me (Minho×ot8)

chapter 142

Felix's pov
"I am sorry" hyunjin said back hugging me, I want out to the balcony to get some air and he followed after me.
"You already apologised hyunie" he replied leaning into his touch.. being with him feels like dream...I still don't believe it.
"Not just for pushing you " hyunjin said " since we met in that orphanage I did nothing but hurt you" he added.
I pulled away from his hug to face him " if I didn't meet you I would have found jeongin, I wouldn't have found changbin and chan hyung...or the others hyunjin...we were meant to be. .you are sorry for entering my life...I am not" I said frowing.

"I just love so much but I always end up on messing things up" he said looking down.
"Our life was never easy hyunjin, but we still have each other...we lost a piece of our soul but he is watching over us...he wouldn't have wanted us to give up...for the past three years I looked for jeongin and you like a mad man...none stop...and now I found you...i don't care about what will happen next as long as the seven of us are together " I said caressing his cheek. " I love you too, you know that...you are my first love nothing will change that...you gave me hell but so did I...but it is all in the past."I added.
"I was counting days to see you again...all of you...but I had no other choice...I couldn't lose you as well...I promised to never leave your side again and I failed..."
"As you said you had no choice. You are not the one to blame here" I said cutting him off.

"Felix" he said staring right into my eyes " I am scared" he continued I could see so many emotions inside his eyes...of course he is...I am scared too...I am scared of losing someone else...I won't survive another loss...if hyunjin decides to go against Cain...if he loses to him...
"You are scared of losing us...I know" I said grabbing his hands " but love if you Don't believe in yourself you won't win against Cain....you are one of the most talented agents the organisation have ever seen, and you said you trained for the past three years..."
"You didn't see Cain fight felix, he is almost unhuman" hyunjin said cutting me off " you know me, i am a confident person, but after seeing him...I just can't help but doubt everything" he added making me frown.

Is that man that good? I mean he must have a weakness right...well if he does it am sure that hyunjin would have noticed he is trained for that...but if he says that he is that strong there is no doubt in that...I just...I am hoping for a miracle maybe just maybe hyunjin will be able to beat him and get all of us out of here...I don't know Cain and I don't know what he is capable of but if my boyfriend says that we need to be careful around him I believe him or I would have challenged him myself...
"How much time do we have until he will call for you to hear your decision?" I asked.
"I don't know exactly but believe it won't take long" hyunjin said rubbing his forehead " they don't need me anymore lix, this was their plan...this what lia wanted by bringing you here...Cain gave me his words that he won't touch you but he didn't say anything about you coming here with your own will...I am lost...I am stuck and I have no idea what to do." He added swallowing hard...this is the first time I see him like this...this helpless...this weak.

"I know this may sound crazy but let's just live here" I said making his eyes widen.
"What are you talking about..."
"Hear me out" I said stopping him " I am not saying to do that forever just until we find a solution, we can stay and live here just like you did with jeongin the past years than decide" I added.
"That's not feasible, minho hyung left his kids to come..."
"And they are safe and sound with my mom and the others" I cut him off.
"Lix, it is not that easy, and I don't think Cain will agree to something like this...he won't just let the seven of us stay together he will know we are into something...hell, maybe he will even ask you to work for him...kill for him..."
"Well neither jeongin nor you killed before..."
"Jeongin was a prisoner he just got out...I didn't leave this place but I have never said that I didn't kill anyone " he said making me freeze " Don't look at me like that...I had no choice...it was life or death situation...they love fighting to death" he added.